I have honestly been meaning to write this blog for a while now. Well its 5:30 am and I am inspired so its a good a time as any…
Being Called to the Missions Field
As some of you might have read in my This is me section there was a struggle for me to truly surrender my life to the LORD, although I had know about him mostly my whole life from growing up in the church. Before I was Saved I had a TON of plans for my life. At one point I was into fashion, at another science. I had dreams of becoming the most successful, educated person I could be. I figured I would go to college, obtain the highest degree necessary to have my one way ticket to 6-figure salary career city, meet a nice guy, have a family and oh yeah of course go to church on Sunday. Not that respectively any of those things are bad, but in my quest to obtain those things I had one small problem IT WASNT GOD'S WILL FOR MY LIFE. So actually that presented a BIG problem.
When I first began to walk with the LORD one of the biggest issues I kept running into was intellectualism. All the things I had learned, or thought I knew caused me to have a VERY haughty spirit, and they exalted them selves above the knowledge of GOD. (NOTE: One of the biggest forms of bondage for educated people is intellectualism. It is a nasty, nasty thing to struggle with because if given the chance to breed it can turn into Atheism. Having too much confidence in ones own brain, and self abilities cancels out the need for the LORD.) Now please hear me right, I am in NO WAY saying that you have to be stupid or that being smart is a sin, but when it exalts its self above GOD then that is an issue! This was truly a struggle for me, but becuse JESUS is WONDERFUL he granted me deliverance.
Deliverance was not easy though. It took TONs of casting down thoughts, a dozen humble pies, and scripture upon scripture for me to realize I CANT PLAN MY OWN LIFE! After I realized this ill admit I was indees lost. My whole life had been built upon the notion of this big career, until one day….
I woke up, slightly startled,
Did I really just dream that?
Im not sure if I understand?
Was that you LORD?
That night I dreamed of being in a third world country praying for sick children. The thought crossed my mind of dong missions work and somehow that night somthing was planted in my spirit, and I know one day I would be going to Africa. After that dream, which always lingered in my spirit, I ran smack dab into another wall. URBANA 2009 (deep sigh)….this was the college conference I atttended where GOD literally turned my life upside down. I came home after about 7 days of worshiping JESUS with 17,000 college students of all different races, hearing missionaries pour out their hearts, and having my very existance shaken, but I knew I was called to the Missions Field.
Since that time GOD has opened up some of the most amazing and beautiful doors for me to spread the Gospel through missions. He has also taught me another very important thing, and that is how to be a missionary 24/7, not just in a foreign land. It is IMPARITIVE that we share the Gospel my brothers and sisters. People are dieing, physically and spiritually but we hold the truth that there is an perfect HOPE in JESUS that will save them! One of the greatest joys I have ever known outisde of JESUS loving me is being used by him to love on somone else. The way I felt the first time I ever hugged an african orphan, or taught an inner city Dallas kid, well lets just say the very thought brings me to tears, and I am humbled ever time I realize that GOD choose me to live out such a beautiful, fulfilling life with him!
I have somthing now that I didnt have before, PASSION.
A deep rooted passion in my spirit to relentlessly LOVE and folllow JESUS even to the Ends of the Earth…
It is in no way glamorous like my previously envisioned life, but I know I have never know JOY like this before.
Isnt GOD WONDERFUL!
Acts 1:8 But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes upon you. And you will be my witnesses, telling people about me everywhere—in Jerusalem, throughout Judea, in Samaria, and to the ends of the earth.”
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