For those of you who don’t know much
about my battle with night terrors – you can catch up at Night Terrors. Night
Terrors (Part II) and/or Night Terrors (The Conclusion).
It was the
last month of my 2nd World Race and I had just had my 7th
night terror in a row. SEVENTH.
It was a
string of successive nights in a row that I have never experienced in my 18 years of
battling them.
The night
terror experience is very draining Physically,
Emotionally and Spiritually. And I felt at the end of my rope.
As I sought
God out on what was happening, I started to think back to what He had said
about this in the past.
remembered that I heard God say in Cambodia in 2008:
“This kind only comes
out by Prayer and Fasting”
Immediately
during that time I thought of Mark
chapter 9 where Jesus casts a demon
out of a boy that his disciples couldn’t and this is how he responds to them
when they ask why they couldn’t do it.
But this
time God took me a little deeper.
Here were my thoughts fresh off of 7 night terrors in a row –
straight from my journal:
I don’t know if I or My Generation
knows what it means to really dig into something.
To be Patient.
FIGHT.
Often times I find
myself and others around me defaulting to normal
and/or comfortable routines when dealing with
spiritual things.
Whether healing or a spiritual attack –
I spent a month in Kenya with a Pastor who
prays every morning from 2 a.m. to 6 a.m. (True Story – Read Here) and over the course of time
he has experienced a lot in the area of Spiritual Warfare.
He told me that one of the keys to deliverance is PATIENCE.
know you are in a hurry and entrench themselves.
role in our lives?
Maybe you have heard of a woman named Heidi Baker. (Her and her husband Rolland have
served God as missionaries in Mozambique for the last 20 years and have a
couple books- notably “Always Enough”)
During their time there they have seen God perform many miracles.
Including people being raised
from the dead. 
over a dead person for hours before they came back to life.
fight? That kind of patience?
There are things in
life that will require much more
than our typical response.
know nothing about.
An Example:
Before lunch during my month in Tanzania, the Pastor we were
working with came and got us to go pray for a baby and her Mom.
This baby had sickle cell anemia. A fatal disease.
We stayed about 5 minutes or so praying over the Mom for strength
and the baby for Healing.
healing and we give 5 minutes?
I’m sure
that’s more spiritual inexperience then Lack of Caring but I
do (at least personally) feel like it indicates a Lack of Patience.
that Spiritual Fathers and Mothers get
That I think most in my generation (Including
Me) doesn’t.
our normal effort in prayer.
Deep things
that will require a lot of Fight. Patience. Perseverance. And Selflessness.
mature.
I get the feeling that if I want to live this out and not just
preach it – That a lot of me
will have to die.
A LOT.
On the other side is Greater
Spiritual Authority.
Deep Freedom for Others.
The chasm in-between is filled with Pain, Dying and Risk.
to do with my Night Terrors?
Simply that I believe PROTECTION will come in daily,
consistent prayer like always.
But FREEDOM will come from those
in my life that God calls to truly FIGHT FOR ME and they
listen, respond and Dig In and really go to BATTLE for
my Freedom.
I can’t ask people to do that. I certainly can’t force
people to do that. All I can do is TRUST that God will call
certain people to do so and those people will LISTEN.
And in the end – I’ll get my FREEDOM and
in the process of being fought for have a much clearer understanding of what
that means to do it for OTHERS.
