I can’t believe it’s month 2 already. Thailand was a beautiful place of such radiant smiles, hearts, and light. Our time at Zion and with Emmi created memories to last a lifetime; elephants, waterfall excursions, hospital visits, Tuk Tuk rides, 16 people sung taows, and so many more.
Our travel day from Thailand to Cambodia was a long one but filled with prayerful moments. During the day’s worth of travel I began to miss family and had some really pressing heart tugs placed on my spirit. So here is where my heart stands and here is what God is speaking to me:
1) Cambodia is like a country of sweet children in search for their Father. I have gotten so many pictures of children running down paths, smiling, hugging, embracing and learning. Our ministry this month is teaching English. As a teacher my heart is so filled by spending my hours with these special kiddos. They love hugging, playing, piggyback rides, swings, and all the things my heart loves. I am just a big kid in a 23 year old body- Jesus is showing me, it’s okay to live life with the heart of a child, He has given me that. He died so we can live freely like a child.
2) Cambodia is the poorest country in the world and I could feel an atmosphere shift the moment we entered it. Identity is in money and idols. Oppression is present. B U T JESUS….is H E R E! Of the 90% of pastors here, only 10% are Christian. This blew my mind; blind are leading the blind. Prayers for open eyes and hearts are so needed. Education is a major force of revival in hearts…with knowledge and The Word of God moving powerfully.
3) Random but true: my future husband. For so long I didn’t think I was worthy or able and the fearless and whimsical heart God has shown me that I have tells me otherwise. I am confident in who He made me and sharing me with the world. I know my heart is special and crafted wonderfully and I want a man who when we share life together, we reflect Jesus even brighter. God knows the time for that after the Race and whomever my future husband is, know I am praying for you- we are going to have an adventurous life! 🙂
4) Dreams: For so long art has been a passion of mine, interwoven with love, encouragement, and identity. I would love to open and ART/Coffee shop dedicated to prophetic art and have people, women especially, come and soak in the love and worth God has for them. A safe place. A loving place. A place of hope and rest because Jesus rests there. A BIG dream but one I am praying for 🙂
5) My team: LOVE RANGERS…God is unifying us with each passing day and we have so much to learn from one another. We are all very different but share the same heart for being fearless in the ways we love. Prayers for God to continue to bring us to new places and reveal more of His heart.
6) Exploration is knit into us 🙂 Cambodian biking has shown me that I love soaring through life as God holds me and we explore together. Riding a bike freely down the streets of Cambodia with traffic and motorbikes moving both ways will help you learn to be fearless!
7) God is helping me stomp out walls! Sometimes we push things aside and we just try and move past without dealing- God doesn’t work that way with me. My whole story has been about conquering walls and I am still conquering walls. A wall that to many may seem silly is one regarding my beauty. This is me being real and raw. I have come light years from where I use to be but He is helping me to stand strong in not caring AT ALL about what people think. It’s hard not to by human nature but it’s been something God has spoken to me about for my story- not needing validation, not needing approval, and not needing others to feed me. God feeds me. I am beautiful. He has already won that battle. I believe that and rest in that, but like many women some days are hard with that. He is helping me in those days; they are days that remind me of how far He has brought me and what He sees.
8) He has a deep love for the WORLD! A picture He has given me is 11 lockets around His neck- one for each country…and how His heart beats specifically for each of them! What He sees when He thinks of these places- the beauty and life He wove within!
So much is happening and so much will continue! God is faithful, and so blessed by all of YOU!
