I think Jesus values honesty even more than we as humans do. He craves for us to approach His throne with an open and honest heart that is just that, open and honest. The first word I think of when I think about honesty is the world children. Children have no trouble being honest because they know that by being honest, their hearts get heard and their worries melt away. Isn’t this what Daddy loves about our relationship as sons and daughters of His? The very fact that we can be honest and open with Him and that within that precious sanctuary of His presence, there is grace for the hard questions and room for the fears, worries, and inadequacies.
I want to always be a child when it comes to my relationship with Daddy. I want Him to be the first who hears my fears, my questions, my worries. I think we sometimes view Jesus and His honesty like we do with humans, that when we say what we are thinking we will be viewed as less or not good enough or weak, but Jesus already loves those things about us. He loves us so much that He wants to hear about our brokenness, our fears, our worries, and be our first helper and Rock!
Honesty is a beautiful place. It’s a place where pride takes the back seat and we really have to search our hearts. I want to be honest always like I said, first with Jesus and second with peoole. Honesty is allowing ourselves to be second. Here are some points that I want to be honest about, because I know that Jesus is going to use all of this to strengthen me, my team, hearts, and the nations as we bring our whole selves to HiM!
Point número uno: I am scared. I believe it is a healthy scared because I continue to get butterflies about the nations that will be won over by the beauty of Jesus and His whimsical heart, but I would be lying if I said I wasn’t scared. Jesus, I know you use our human weakness for your heavenly glory! As we step out in a faith Daddy, grow us more, help us to better love, show us more, reveal more. Where your love rests, fear has no hold. I am excitingly scared but I know it’s because You await us in such goodness, even through the uncertainty. He has grace for honesty.
Point número dos: I will miss my family a lot! I know God has created in me a childlike heart that loves to chase His heart and His nations and be a light but I will miss my family. I love them, and I know God has much to teach me about abandoning it all for Him. I pray He takes me on deeper walks into His heart and helps me see why it is when we leave all we are, we get to embrace the fullness of life in Jesus. He has love for honesty.
Point número tres: I want so much more of Daddy. He knows that. He has honored that so much in my life. I have been praying for identity to be solid in Him, for newness to abound, for victory to take hold. I know Jesus has amazing things in store for this year and its okay for me to crave more. Crave so much more that my heart feels like it might explode because His love draws me into His heavenly sanctuary. I pray for more and I know that is a beautiful prayer, but one that also comes with big answers. Jesus ready me for more and more. He has joy for honesty.
These are just some of the honesty points He has really laid on my heart but the biggest thing about honesty is that it yields life, truth, and hope. I need to always be honest with Jesus because when I can share my honesty, He reveals more behind what He is doing in my heart and how He wants to bring me closer. So yes, I am excited, scared, anxious, happy, stoked, loved, expectant, and so many other things but He designed the human heart to be honest. To be honest to we would always yearn for more- more of Jesus. And to be totally honest- I want more is an understatement of how much I want to be taken deeper with Jesus, on so many levels. But He knows, he appreciates honesty.
-V
