I know I haven't blogged this month. I have spent much of the month attempting to decifer my heart. Many days I didn't want to be here and I couldn't force myself to change. James caused to me analyze my heart in God's presence when he told us to check our hearts before engaging in worship.
I was quickly reminded of why I came on this adventure. God called me to this. And mostly adventure. I came on this adventure for adventure. And now the adventure is mostly worn off and I was having trouble finding motivation to continue.
Somehow when I started this journey, I thought that I would return to my life but I would be a little different. I had everything I wanted and everything I thought I needed.
But.
Bit by bit, I changed.
Bit by bit, my life changed.
But not little bit by little bit.
Things changed giant bit by giant bit.
And now when I look at my life I dont know anything. I dont know where I will live or what I will do.
One thing I do know.
In this moment, I choose to remember that my God is good.
When I feel like all good things in my life have been taken, I choose to remember that my Heavenly Father loves me and he has good things for me.
I choose to remember that God is God alone and I love him.
I will continue for that reason only.
