God is so amazing… through my stuggle and trials he remains so faithful and loving. God is working in this place… Not just here in Nicaragua but here in my heart. I have seen God in a way that has not been so profound as it has been to these past few days. I can confidently say I'm so in love with Christ Jesus who has set me free. I'm so free in him, its so un-explainable(if thats even a word.)
The greatest commandment is to: "Love thy nieghbor as thy self"… so then that means I need to love myself!!! Do I love myself?…. No really?… Do I?… Are the words that I speak LIFE into my life? or are they destruction? I'm finding out the answers as the days pass… And the truth is I've never fully, truly loved myself. Finding that out… I could feel the grievence of my Lord. How could I give him such a slap in the face? I AM BEAUTIFUL! God has been fixing and working on my self worth for my self greatly and I can't get enough of it!
Today after the last day of our amazing truth cirlcle excercise, I shared with my group a little bedtime snack for the brain. We have been discussing our drive and passion for evangelizing and have found we all have different ways and views, but none the less we share the belief and passion of expanding the lords kingdom. Tonight I read the passage Revelations 4:1 and as I read it I told my team to close their eyes and imagine standing there at the throne of the most high. When I originally read this verse I totally weeped in adoration of how mighty, worthy, gracious, merciful, and beautiful(I could go on forever) he is. Knowing someday I will get to be in that sort of presence is what keeps me here and serving him. Because someday the Lord will tell me "Well done my good and faithful servant." And I gladly go through sacrafice and service to someday be at his throne. For my God…Oh how I'm so in love with your redemtion, grace, mercy, and unfathomable love, continue this growth in me until the day I'm at your holy throne this I pray. God is Good, all the time!
I want to thank all of you who support me. Your such a blessing and I'd like you to know your support love and prayers, are such a blessing and keep me going! I love and appreciate you all!
With all my love, tatiana famania
