Growing up family was a big part of my life as well as Christianity. I grew up in a Christian home, church every Sunday and at least twice a week. I was homeschooled with a Christian mother and father. I never questioned my faith or religion until about 1 year ago. About 2 years before this, a woman dear and close to me was sick with cancer. Her name was Christina, she was my aunt. I had a spiritual bond with her that I can honestly say I have never had with anyone else. She was not only family, but a mentor and an amazing woman of God. The rock of our family. Her fervent walk with God inspired me. She was an amazing prayer warrior, and through her pain and struggle remained faithful to the lord’s calling on her life, which was to touch the lives of many through her faith. She did just that. Before she passed away she told me not to forget the legacy she would leave behind was for me and whoever else would pick up their cross, and be life changers, starting in the family and working their way through the world. She lost her battle to breast cancer January 2010. And though it was one of the hardest things to do, I said goodbye to the amazing vessel God had let us borrow for some time. But I knew I would be seeing her beautiful restored soul in heaven. After her death, I began questioning my faith and beliefs, all the Sunday school teachings I had been taught, and all the things she had taught me. All the things my parents had taught me. Until I got to a point in life where I had drifted out too far to tell where I was at. I went ‘my own direction’ and decided to not look back. I don’t think I ever really grasped God’s un-conditional love, while serving Him, so my vision of God’s love looked like an angry parent with rules, regulation, and consequences. How could I please God…? I am tainted!? What would God want with me now? How could I preach love, purity, faith, and strength when I have given it all up with the mistakes I had made? I had to finally hit my rock bottom in order to realize that I didn’t know what I had until HE was all I had. I finally heard him say “For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God…” (Ephesians 2:8-9) It was then that I cried out to God asking him to re-new me and to give me faith stronger than before, faith that would catch fire and spread, faith that would cause me to MOVE! RUN! and LEAP! blindly in Him. I use to characterize my life by how many life experiences I could have, and by finding a man with security that I could marry. I guess it’s kind of similar except I now characterize my life by how many life experiences I can have with God leading my life, and now I have a man in my life that I am so in love with. HE gives me so much more than security, He gives me un-conditional love. He fills me with joy, laughter, peace and understanding. This man is JESUS! And I know that someday he will send me my ‘prince charming’ someone he has picked out perfectly for me. But only when He wills it. Until then I will follow what HE has called me to do. THE WORLD RACE!
I’m so excited about the life changing experience ahead of me. God has called me to the mission’s field! I will be traveling to 11 countries that have not embraced the love of god; countries indulged in human trafficking, death, and poverty. I will be leaving behind all materialistic things behind and embracing a life devoted to sharing my testimony and God’s un-conditional love with others. Whether working in orphanages, schools, communities and human trafficking programs, I will be giving myself 100% to god’s calling in my life and over my team! I hope that you will support me in fervent prayer as I ready myself for this amazing WORLD RACE I will embark on. I love you all so much. May the Lord truly bless you they way HE has blessed, and continues to bless me!
All my un-conditional love,
-Tatiana Famania
