So every day before starting our ministry we participate in
what is called “House of Prayer” to read more on it go here www.thop.co.nz/ The short version is it’s 4
straight hours of prayer and worship from 8am-12. During this time God has spoken in a big way to me, like
never before actually. My 1st day I dreaded going because I thought
I could be doing something better with my time like feeding the hungry, or
taking care of orphans etc. I soon realized that my sinful nature just hated
the discipline, which bothered me because I want my heart to be on fire for
God.
Psalm 84:2 says ” My soul longs, yes, faints for the courts
of the LORD; my heart and flesh sing for joy to the living God”
This is my hearts cry. God has been molding my heart to a
position this week of just longing for time with Him, in prayer, in His word,
just time. So during my (3) 4hrs prayer sessions so far this week God has given
me 2 images, which I tried my best to sketch down as best I could. Also each
morning session has inspired this “psalm” style communication with God. I have
3 in my journal so I wanted to share them with you guys back home.
This was transferred from my journal: 1-11-2010
I sit here listening to the sweet melody of God’s word flow
over my ears like waves gently crashing on the shore.
I am blessed by God to sit before His throne & freely
worship Him.
Yet my flesh prevents & distracts the joy I wish to feel
to freely give.
Remove the walls in my way God remove them in Jesus name.
Make yourself known to me in this place.
Come to me as you did your servant Job, David, as you did
with your son Jesus.
Allow me to rejoice over you in worship & prayer
Instead of it being a weight tied around my neck.
I do not desire these feelings.
Give me your words & your spirit to speak life
Into those that desperately wish to hear from you.
I am an unworthy vessel but I beg you to use me anyway.
Let my sinful nature & flesh be silenced.
Give me eyes to see the burdens of others
Give me your heart to feel for them
Give me your words to uplift & comfort them.
I want to be like Jesus. I am a warrior, inside
Waiting to be released to your people God.
I grow weary of the silence, I need to be pushed
If I truly am your rock use me and show me.
Open me up & pour me out, give me a heart that breaks
Breaks for your people, your nations.
People here see this mighty warrior in me. I only feel it I
have yet to truly see it
Some say I have the heart of a Lion, I long to hear it roar.
To bring life into your people, to my brothers and sisters
Use me Father, Abba USE me! You will get the glory.
Free me from these chains of silence
Give me your sword and your shield.
Place an army of angels at my side, be my rear guard.
Let no arrow from the enemy pierce my skin.
Use me to be your warrior, here on earth.
Show me those elect, your future children.
I will go get them for you, I will awaken them as you have
woken me.
Time is running short, send me, free me, use me.
To see you get all glory, honor, and praise.
You are my Father, Abba, Daddy, you are my King.
Who do you say I am? Who am I to you Oh, Lord?
Humble me, brake me, let me be righteous before your eyes.
Take me out of the silence, it’s lonely here.
Put my life on display for you, use me til my last breath.
May I awake at your throne, may I cast my crown of iron at
your Holy feet.
May my tears bring you joy. May I spend an eternity with you
only to stay
And worship at your feet. For even that sight I am not
worthy of.
I delight in you, I rejoice in you,
I live for you, I die for you.
I love you.
I love you God, full my heart with your heavenly love.
Let it overflow to those around me.
That they may know you are my God
Nothing compares to your great and everlasting love.
You are worthy God.
Worthy of all glory, honor, and praise.
I am not worthy, but you use me anyway.
I love that about you.
Send me to the nations to do your work.
As I go expand my heart so it never gets too small
to see the smallest injustice.
I Love you God.
– Michael
