The other day a dear friend of mine said something that struck me to the very core. He said, “Marcie, you know not everything is about you.” Of course he said this in a sarcastic tone of voice and I laughed when he said it, but then I realized something. So often my thoughts revolve around me. My day revolves around me. My time is spent on me. And yet, the exact opposite should be occurring. Jesus should be the sole focus of my life.
Ever since I was accepted on the World Race in September, I have struggled with fundraising. It has been a very difficult process to say the least. And the reason why it is so hard is because I have to focus on the Lord so much, knowing that it is only through Him that I will serve on the World Race. I constantly have to depend on Jesus for everything. Too often I find myself not relying on God the Father, but rather my own strength. I find it so hard to fully depend on the Lord, although there is no reason to. And the ironic part is that my middle name is Faith, and yet right now that is being challenged on a daily basis.
I am slowly but surely realizing how much this life is not about me. It is not about me at all, whatsoever. And if I begin to think that it is, that is a lie from the adversary. My prayer and hope is that God continues to grow me in this area so that I would depend on Him for everything and allow Jesus to change my heart and thoughts so He remains the focus of my life.
Sometimes I become very overwhelmed with how much money I still have to raise. I begin to feel anxious, lost. Yet I know there is no reason to fear, because God has got it. And all of this work I have put in to fundraising does not matter because what matters is Jesus. And may His will be done, not mine
