How I do NOT want to live:
I don’t ever want to be comfortable again. I never want to get to a place in life where I can sit back, kick my feet up and live off of “my” success. I never want to stop learning, growing, and being challenged by the Lord. I don’t want to know what His future plans for my life are. I never want to have it all figured out. I do not want to make a steady income, or weigh a decision based on whether I make 60,000 or 70,000 a year. I never want to consider myself smarter, funnier, or more worthy than anyone else. I never want to say no to the Lord. I never want to feel at home. I do not want the picturesque home in the suburbs with a white picket fence. I do not want to make sense to this world. If the Lord uses me in my weakness, then I don't ever want to be strong.
How I want to live:
I want to live in fear of the Lord. I want to be ready to leave tomorrow if the Lord asks me to. I want to be able to fit everything I own in one backpack. I want to have the faith to know He will take care of me 100% of the time: anywhere and in any season. I want to continually be in awe of who He is. I want to be overwhelmed every time I hear how He gave his life for me. I want to be able to give up anything I own in a second. I want to be able to immediately jump to prayer first before any other remedy. I want to serve constantly. I want to die to myself daily. I want to love the Lord above all things. I want to be homeless and rely on the Lord for my next meal. I want to know what’s on the Lord’s heart. I want to love others freely without fear. I want to live in a state of sweet brokenness before him. I want to continually give Him the glory.
“For the message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God.” 1 Corinthians 1:18
