Here is a Blog I wrote a year ago today. It brings tears to my eyes to look back and see how Faithful God is and how he never forgets anything I ask him for. He is my king and I love him so dearly.
God is my identity.
Who Is Olivia Hess you ask? Well I’m here to tell you that I’m not really sure of that question myself.
Most of the time people would classify me as a cheerful girl who loves to love people and who always wants to have a good laugh even if that means embarrassing my self. I’m fun loving and out going and -strait up- in love with Jesus. I love caring for Children and being apart of there development as they grow and change and learn how to adapt in there surroundings. I also am a Lover of the stage. I have been Involved with a growing group of people called CYT for 10+ years. Christian Community Theater had not only Invested in the larger part of my development as a believer they have also invested in my God given talent, brought me life long friends as well as prayer partners and encouragers. Then there is Mountain View Assembly of God, My home church where I grew up. Most of the people that attend Mt.View I have known my whole life. They also have invested in my walk with the Lord. They have helped provide the things I need, they have encouraged me and have uplifted me. Also, they have prayed for me and believed in me.
Though all these things, people, places and experiences have helped mold me, I have found myself at an intricate point in my walk with the Lord. I have recently been praying and asking the lord to show to me who He desires me to be rather than what I or others desire for myself. at this point I can look back and say, Though all of my accomplishments were Good, though i have a Godly family who loves me, Godly people investing in my life and a light hearted spirit (most of the time), all of this does not give me an identity. At least not a justifiable one. One that i cant take right to the bank and count on every time.
you can only imagine how this gripped me. Loss of who I am… I felt as though I didn’t even have a leg to stand on. Instantly I went to God in complete confusion, Got on my knees and said Lord, I don’t know who I am. I don’t know where I belong, anything and everything I have ever done all of a sudden has no merritt in my spiritual walk with you.. do I really know you Lord, Do I really Trust you with all of me? and that’s when He brought the WR into my life. I’m excited to Get to know who God intended me to be with out all of these beautiful things he has blessed me with.
My identity can only be found in Jesus Christ alone. Join me on this Journey to the End of myself.
