So, I'm sitting at the computer trying to come up with where to begin in this blogging journey of mine, and I find myself drawing a blank. I cant come up with what to write about.. of course the thought pops into my mind, "I know, Ill go stalk my team mates and maybe i'll get an idea". In the midst of all my creeper stalking and reading amazing blogs the Holy Spirit spoke to me and said Transparency. Just be open, that's what your readers what to see. They want to be able to make connections with you along your journey. Instantly I felt my self start to rebel because I am not much of an open book to anyone especially to people I don't know. The thought of people knowing my inner most thoughts and feelings scare me to death. why you ask? I'm wondering the same. but I want to be obedient to the Holy Spirit because I trust Him so here it Goes.
Among all the chaos in this season of life, I still find my self retreating to memories of the past. It happens less often now but it still happens. I often think of Good memories to the point I start to miss them but then the bad memories over shadow the good like a plague and the anxiety sets in. I find my self in an all out war with something so much bigger than myself and something I didn't realize had such control in my life. When I find my self in this situation I pray to the Lord my protector, my teacher, my coach, my father. I pray that he gives me His mighty strength to fight and the have the wisdom to see the enemies tricks. I pray for the endurance to fight through the night and power to with stand the enemies lies. He so Gently reminds me in his word that He is my refuge and my strength and I can trust in Him alone. He says He will rescue me from every trap and protect me. He will cover me and shelter me beneath his mighty wing. If I make him my refuge, no evil will conquer me. and when the Lord reminds me that I am loved and protected, the fear and anxiety and torment seems to fade away. Amen
To my readers: this is what i struggle with daily, as my readers I consider you like family. As I poor out my self on this blog I ask only 2 things of you. #1 Please pray for me, pray that the Lord would have his hand in all that I do and that I would be sensitive to the Holy Spirits voice though out this journey to the end of my self. #2 Please consider being a supporter of this journey. I believe that the Lord has a plan and I believe that the World Race is just the beginning.
~To the end of my self and beyond
