In the midst of all the Hubbub of getting ready for Training Camp, I find myself in sort of a defused state of mind. So many have asked me, “are you excited”? In response, there is a cheeky grin that splashes across my face as I respond with “SO.EXCITED.” Though I say that with such enthusiasm, only apart of me truly feels that way. I couldn’t figure out why I wasn’t all-out ready to get out there and experience it all.
There is a point in everyone’s life that I would classify as a pivotal moment. Its when reality discovers you, or rather you discover it. Reality meaning, finally figuring out your Christmas presents are not from the ever famous Santa, The tooth fairy is really just your mom, or love doesn’t really happen like it does in the movies. That pivotal moment makes what was once so believable completely and utterly disappointing. But then, something wonderful happens. We learn to accept that what seemed so real before to be impossible… and its O.K. Then from that stem’s maturity. This moment often occurs in our lives and with it brings a higher form of maturity.
Now, with this all being said, it brings be back to my original thought. I have been having what I call “Reality Check” moments for the last few months, More than ever. For instance, It was so easy for me to believe a year ago that I would be well on my way to matrimony by now. That’s not the case however, and I look back now and am not only grateful for how God has saved me, but I’m shocked at how deceived I really was. Its the same thing for an 8 year old who learns for the first time that Santa Isn’t real, Or that school girl crush who gives away her first kiss in hopes that classical music would play quietly in the background and that this adolescent boy would love her with every fiber of his being.. sort of how Mr. Darcey loves Elizabeth Bennett. The fantasy (aka) the tings we desire in the flesh, probably isn’t what God had written for reality. Its a devastating moment that usually causes tears and confusion then later brings what we like to call “Lesson Learned” or mature growth in whats Reality vs. Fantasy.
I’m on the cusp of another one of these pivotal moments at this point in my life. Realizing my fantasy isn’t Gods reality for me. I think I’m beginning to learn how to embrace Gods reality. Letting him wright my story is a new experience. I think that’s where my defused state of mind comes into play. That point where you no longer believe the lies of the fantasy but have yet to embrace the reality. When it actually happens ill get the chance to mature and grow. and I cant wait to become more like this Woman whom Jesus Christ has created me to be. #worldracebound #LivingGodsreality
