I realize how much of a procrastinator I am just by the way I have been these past few weeks of fundraising. I keep telling myself do this do that yet It never seems too get done. I know what it is I want yet I forget to take the first step. I cause myself to stumble and fail because I myself don't persevere. I pray that God will give me a mind that will no longer forget whats important and a body and spirit that does not grow weary of doing good and doing good work. I cause myself stress because I don't do or always avoid what seems hard. Yet when it truley is all said and done I feel as if im on top of the world. I, at times get discouraged by family and sometimes friends because of there lack of faith in me yet i know that God uses the useless and shines through the less likley so Ill take my procrastination and stressfilled mind and ill take my own doughts and self-loathing and I will CHOSE to shine. A friend of mine told me that when we were lost we didn't know right from wrong. Our own nature was that of evil so in order to do right it was our choice, So when we became new our nature is to do right so by the Holy Spirit now it is only our choice whether we do wrong or not. I have been trapped by my own choices yet God forgives …..Hallelujah that he forgives. I am thankful and to those who may dought me ….yea i even doughted myself but God never gives up EVER and neither will I.
