“My girls”, a phrase my friends and family heard on a regular basis. While working at Youth For Christ I spoke about these girls like a proud mother. I saw growth and hope rising in their lives. I felt myself changing, desiring to empower young women to seek Christ and reach new heights. They challenged my patience and taught me how to love more selflessly. Not a day could go by without thinking about them and a smile coming to my face! After being gone for two months the impression they made on my heart is only going deeper. I didn’t know this would be possible. They were sisters, friends, and sidekicks. They still are. I feel as if I have a glimpse into Paul’s life as he travels to different places, ministering, while aching for both those he has left and those he has not yet met.
This is for those special growing women. You say things are changing, not the same. Comfort and security is gone. Sometimes people you once knew, they change, they hurt, they grow. The family that was built had nothing to do with my presence! God set our paths together for a period of time, that joy you felt was an increasing desire for the Lord. Those tears you shed were a realization that there is more, there is hope! My presence or lack of does not impact Christ’s call to embrace Him. We are Biblical babes fighting this battle of life together, and enjoying it to the full.
Yes, I miss singing to Adele and getting you all acquainted with country music. I miss the funny accents and random activities. I miss seeing you all covered in Kool-Aid! Why did I think it was a great idea to fill water guns with sticky juice?! I miss the long talks, wiping away your tears, and seeing your burning questions begin to get answered. I miss preparing God talks, wondering if you hear what I say. Only to be humbly reminded that it isn’t about me. I miss when you shock me with teaching me my own lesson! I miss stomping out the lies of Satan! Don’t let him ever try to convince you of anything less then Gods greatness and your beauty that is wrapped up in awe inspiring design. When you feel like letting go, tighten your grip and profess His name. Teach someone what you have learnt. I will always love you but I am only capable of a fraction of what our Father, the indescribable, can make you understand, feel, and see what love is. He has taught me that love is tangible, more then feeling, it seeps into your senses!
To my future girls – you will be different and so will I ! We will face different challenges and sing a new set of songs. I will be your sister, confident ear, and truthful lips. I am looking forward to being a part of your life. I am working, reading, praying, so that I may look like the closest image of Christ I can for you. On my greatest days I am still only a mere servant barely worthy of crumbs but guess what?! ….. He feeds me! Oh and the food is full of soul. Sharing is one of my favorite things to do, so please come and eat with me. Learning from you will be a gift.
Girls- dream big! People will scoff at you and call you crazy…. Good job! Be a leader, a woman, a teacher, an inspiration. God has given us a loud voice in this world, use it! Never let anyone shrink your God given dreams. Some will try to use age, gender, and expectations against you, fight against it. Not to prove them wrong but to prove to yourself and God that you trust in His voice alone. The world needs more Biblical Babes — spread the word!!!
