Launch is just 25 days away and to be completely honest, I am freaking out right now. Until two days ago, I hadn’t met my second deadline, I was still missing some essential gear, I hadn’t bought my plane ticket to launch, and I was building a nerve knot in my tummy that wouldn’t go away, but the Lord, as he keeps showing me over and over again is the lord over timing and has a purpose in everything that he is doing and has a million lessons o teach me if I am willing to listen to him..
He taught me to rely on him completely, even when everything around me felt like it was crumbling. He taught me to trust that he will send people to bless me, even when I feel like I have asked everyone and their dog to donate with what feels like no donations in over a month. He taught me that his ways are greater than my ways and that when I try to do it myself, I fail every time. He taught me that I have a support system that wants to pray for me even when I have a hard time asking for prayers. He taught me that its okay to be quiet sometimes, and that those are the times you should start to really listen.
As of yesterday, I am $5,287 away from being fully funded, and that completely blows my mind. I had some gear gifted to me that will make a huge difference to me. My parents are gifting me my plane ticket as a Christmas present, and the knot is slowly but surely disappearing. With a little trust and a lot of faith, the Lord uses times like these to grow us and mature us as his children and for that I am thankful.
I am going to be spending a lot of the next 25 days with friends and family, being intentional about how I spend my time, and making memories that will help being away for 11 months a lot smoother. I am going to be worrying less, and loving more. I am going to be embracing my identity and not letting the world tell me who I am. I am going to be me.
