Hey everyone~! So I’m sorry I haven’t been writing as much this passed month, I’m still overcoming that serious case of writers block… I guess you could also say I was
hitting the 5 month hump. Honestly, I was
spiritually hitting a wall.
I knew the promises in the Bible, but I wasn’t
believing them. I wanted nothing more than to live my life sold out for God,
but I was constantly struggling with the feeling of defeat. One morning I was
listening to some worship music and it finally clicked.. I realized that I was
constantly feeling defeated because I was trying to work for my righteousness.
Of course I’d constantly feel defeated, my best is like filthy rags to God..
I’m not supposed to be good enough~ that’s why Christ died for my sins and rose
again… So that I could be righteous through Him.
I’m
not supposed to try and “be good” for God, or even try and “do good” for Him.
My goodness is wrapped in Christ~ He IS my good, and apart from Him I have no
good thing. I’ve learned what I must do is fix my eyes on Him! As I look at
Him, I realize how Awesome and Mighty He is, and how much I need Him. And as I
live out of this reality, then I begin to look LIKE Him.. And as I do that He
does good through me, and He lives through me. So it’s nothing I do~ it’s all
Him! And the more I press into Him and seek His presence, the more glory my
life will bring Him. In actuality I begin to represent Christ here on earth, or
dare I say, “be Christ” to others. I know it’s cliché, but you may be the only
Christ someone sees on this earth.
The
last four days we had debrief with are whole squad, and a bunch of awesome
speakers. I’m continually learning that there is so much more to God than we
will ever know, but He wants us to continually seek for more of Him! It is the
glory of God to conceal a matter; and the glory of kings to seek it out.
Proverbs 25:2
Let’s seek Him out and dive into the great depths of our
Awesome Savior!
