This is short. Just wanted to tell my friends, family and possible strangers who met me once and were intrigued enough to follow up. (“Why would someone give up make-up, social media, Nordstrom’s Sales and 5 o’clock traffic for a year?”) -I’ll tell you when I have proof this wasn’t just a crazy idea.. because today it feels very crazy. #LivingOutMyTrust
I have about 6 days before I leave for Georgia for final training, then off to India just a few days after that.
But it’s not just India- it’s another country after that, then another after that.. for a year.
I’m saying some “goodbyes” and starting to realize I won’t see these familiar faces anymore. Today I’ve cried about three times and my stomach been in a subtle knot. The kind you get before you speak up- daring to disagree.
I’ve never even been overseas! Never done a missions trip! I’m just getting nervous. Although this trip is a blessing, certain aspects are breaking me down.
It doesn’t feel so good right now. 🙁 I don’t want to leave my comfort zone. I don’t want to miss my mom and dad so much. I don’t want to lose touch with friends. I don’t want to be challenged by God. I don’t want to see babies dying of disease or hunger. I don’t want to get sick without having a bed to lay in. I don’t want to be starred because I’m a foreigner.
But then I think… Yeah, I do.
My faith will be made stronger. Kids will smile when I feed and cloth them. Women will believe me when I say Jesus thinks they are worthy, beautiful and strong. My parents will be there when I get home. New friends will be made and old ones will withstand. Coffee withdraws will fade. Sickness will pass. Sunburns will heal.
If you’re curious what it feels like to let go of all you know and jump into a hair of God’s world.. It feels so..incredibly..alive.
“God has made everything beautiful in it’s time.”
