“Your grace is sufficient for me. Your strength is made perfect when I am weak. And all that I cling to, I lay at your feet. Your grace is sufficient for me.”
Those words rang through my computer speakers, pierced my heavy heart and caused me to weep.
As I came into my time with Jesus tonight, I was just worn out. I am overworked. I am tired. I am starting to get sick. I am anxious about the upcoming financial deadline. I feel like my mind is constantly going a million miles a minutes and my heart is racing just as fast, trying to keep up.
I put my worship play list on shuffle, asking Jesus to speak the words I needed to hear. Shane & Shane's “Your Grace is Sufficient” started playing almost before I had even given Jesus my request. It is so simple, yet it's exactly what I needed to hear tonight.
This song holds a special in my heart, because every time I hear it I'm brought back to Thailand with my sweet teammates, worshiping our King. Through this song, the Lord reminded me of all He has done in my life, what He is doing now, and what He has yet to do. He reassured me in my love for the nations by giving me a sweet reminder of my home away from home, Thailand. He also saw exactly where I was tonight and comforted me in that state.
There are times when I second guess this “World Race” thing. Am I really supposed to go? Can God really use me? Am I READY to go? The thought I've struggled with the most lately is that maybe I'm just too broken for this.
But the truth is, I have a God who sees every bit of my heart. Not only that, but He loves me anyway. He sees my brokenness and my weaknesses and uses even those to glorify Himself. He knows when I am struggling and He takes the time to comfort me in that time of need.
Jesus is not surprised by anything in my life right now. He knew exactly where I would be, and He has me exactly where HE wants me. He has brought me to the end of myself so I can surrender it to Him and let Him show up in ways that only He can.
To be honest with you, I am a little nervous. My first deadline is coming up in two and a half weeks. Meeting that deadline will allow me to go to training camp in about a month in order to meet my squad and better prepare for launch.
I am currently $2000 away from that goal. But I know that I have a God who provides everything I need. He has called me to the Race, and He is going to provide EVERY. SINGLE. THING. I need. Because that is what He promises to do, take care of his children. And if I know one thing about God it is that He is faithful.
Thank you so much for allowing me to share my heart with you tonight.
I would love to ask those of you who are reading this for prayer in a few areas:
First of all, I am still working right now. I know it's where the Lord wants me to be, but it has been extremely busy lately and I am working some crazy hours. I am having a really difficult time balancing work and prep for the World Race. I would love prayers for that balance.
Also one thing I really struggle with is staying present in the season I am in. As I said, I know that the Lord has me in my current job for a reason. So please pray for me to stay present in the season the Lord has for me right now!
Lastly I would love prayers for rest and peace in Jesus. I am trusting Him to bring in the $2000 needed to meet my first deadline, but I am getting anxious. Please pray for peace of mind and spirit, trusting in Jesus to provide.
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