So, for the past few weeks I have thought over and over…Holy Moly I have learned so much from this journey already. I had my World Race interview April 9th, it's August 21st that is five months that I have been accepted to this journey. 5 months seems extremely long when you are waiting to launch and that is all you can think about, yet it is extremely short when it comes to fundraising. The World Race and September 13' X Squad has taught me so much about my life, God, and just life in general since I have been accepted.
God really is who He says He is. He will and can provide your every need. I have raised over $8000 dollars in 5 months because of His will. He will reveal new and exciting things to you and you will see His love like never before.
The small things really do matter. Throughout the past few months I have realized every little thing matters. Text messages, time spent with children, and nice words. Every single moment matters to not only me but the people I am leaving behind when I launch.
Expectations STINK. Just throw them out the door. Don't have them. Expectations lead to disappointment and they just allow you space to get your heart and feelings hurt. I'm pretty sure they come from the devil anyway! Not everyone knows how to help me in this journey and not everyone knows how to react to my emotions and excitement so when I expect them to do something magical to cure my crying fit that is unrealistic! It makes your journey a lot more fun if you go at expecting God to show out and work BIG time because guess what? He WILL!
I am Worthy! And so are YOU! I am extremely good at hiding my true emotions and even better at putting on a mask about how I feel about myself. As my best friend tells me almost daily, I am my own worst enemy. Throughout the past few months God has revealed to me that I am HIS daughter and I am WORTHY of love, grace, and forgiveness. I am LOVED by the father, my father. He died on the cross for me, He choose me. How amazing is that?! My squad leader Kaci taught me a lot of that at camp and she was being that light and letting Him speak through her to me even when she didn't realize that. God has done that a lot here lately. Its the best part of my journey so far.
All World Race journeys are different! That just may be my other favorite part. We are all going on the World Race, we all wore orange at camp, we are all leaving September 10th for South Africa but that is pretty much as close to similar as you'll get. We have all had different fundraising stories, different family stories, and different emotions. God is working HUGE in all of our lives at the same time and we are getting different results. I love it so much and it is definitely what is tying us together stronger. We are all there for each other constantly and we are getting to grow and learn from each blog we read, facebook post we comment on, and each mass text that we participate in.
Yes I am probably running away. I am running away from the Jena Bea that has become content with this life. I am running away from this stinky ol flesh that has had trouble desiring more. I am running away from the empty church pews on Sunday morning. I am running away from the word NO and running towards the word GO!
In April everything about leaving the country seemed distant and hard. Out of reach for better words. When I spoke at my first church I probably could have passed out and butterflies took up their homes in my stomach. I was unsure why God choose me to do this. Yet here I am 17 days from LAUNCH… I have packed up my whole entire room almost and stored the boxes in a safe place for the year, I am getting close to my 3rd goal, and have secured transportation to Atlanta to fly out to South Africa. On Sunday I will speak at my sixth church and I have never been more sure God is calling me to this. He is using me to speak His word and love on people. He is using my gifts and talents that He blessed me with, to be a piece in this puzzle He has created with X Squad and more importantly Team BBH!
Team BBH (Beautifuly Broken to Heal) The Women I get to serve the nations with!
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God has made this a very good time in my life to send me to the nations. I know some people aren't at a point that it is not a time for you to Go. If you feel God leading you to go but you can't leave please prayerfully consider donating to my trip and "Go" with me to the nations. Your financial donation with allow me to share His love among the nations and you will be going on this journey with me through that donation. You can do that by giving through the SUPPORT MY CALLING tab or by sending a check to me at::
Jena Haney Adventures in Missions
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