Some things I have learned recently::
I have learned blogging is a lot harder than I expected. I thought it would be a breeze to sit down and share with the world my life through this page.
I have learned its hard to fundraise. I used to say I could be a used car salesman. Ha, not so much!
I have learned that as time gets closer I am finding it harder and harder to think about leaving my loved ones. I don't like feeling left out and in the next year I will be left out of a lot of things.
I have learned that my relationships are going to be pushed to every level possible up until September 1st.
I have learned that imperfection is okay. I have spent most of my life not liking that and yet here I am and learning to be okay with the things that aren't so perfect.
Now the BIG lesson::
It's okay to not be okay! I read another World Racer's blog about this exact topic here recently. (I wish I could remember her name…so if you read this blog WR friend and this was your blog, THANK YOU for impacting me with your words!)
I am SO excited about this path God is taking me on. I can't wait to live life with the people in these 11 countries. I can't wait to be dirty. I can't wait to eat things I am not so sure of. I can't wait to be HIS light in the darkness. I can't wait to have my heart my broken time and time again. I can't wait to experience God and His closeness more than I ever have. I can't wait!
Yet, I am not as okay as I thought I was. I am struggling…here I am admitting that, I, Jena Haney am struggling! My friends are getting married and moving into "grown up life" and I am not moving forward with them in that path! The little ones at church are growing and changing and I am going to miss huge moments in their lives in the next year. My best friend and I are growing apart and I am not sure I am okay with that.
Everyday my emotions go from one extreme to the next…but its okay…Its okay to not be okay! I know I am going to go through some huge growth in the next few months and God is going to do BIG work in my life.
I am not sure why I felt the need to be so open, but here is my heart right now. I can not wait to leave in September and take on this amazing calling has placed in my life I am just thankful that sometimes its okay to not be okay!
