Alright. This is the start. I feel bad for not posting anything to my blog because I know a lot of you guys have been wanting to know what I’ve been doing. So I’m just gonna share a few stories about what my experiences have been like. But I also want to share what my challenges have been like with my relationship with god.
Coming to training camp was probably the craziest thing I’ve ever done on my own. It wasn’t my first time flying but it was my first time being on my own in a whole new place, in a new city and in a new state I’ve never been to before. And from those 10 days I feel so much more humbled and I feel God telling me I can do so much more because of those few days.
But when I arrived to training camp and started to learn about everybody’s lives and stories I kept doubting myself. I kept thinking, Am I mature enough to do this? Why can’t I pray deeply like she was or how come I can’t feel God in my heart like they can? Each of these questions would show up in my mind everyday and I would shut myself out from other people because I didn’t think I had a story worth telling. But coming home and talking with my family about some of these things I’ve been feeling, they started to change my perspective. And I realized, all of the deep words you say or things you know specifically out of the bible that you learn from church doesn’t determine your faith. You can learn about Jesus and teach yourself at home. You can learn and study all you want anywhere you want, it doesn’t have to be taught at a church. If God can work through me at training camp then he can work through me anywhere.
