No way. If someone had told me a little over a week ago that my life would be changed at training camp for the WR, I would have politely nodded, and sub-conscioussly disagreed with a simple, "naaaaah." But I would have been wrong. So wrong. Here is a list of just a few things, although they feel like they took place in another galaxy, are very much reality and have begun to stir change within me and prove how very very wrong i was, but in the BEST of ways. 🙂
In one week God has broken down many-a-wall to get me into a sometimes painfully intimate yet beautifully broken posture before Him. I hadn't cried like that in His presence in a long time. He revealed to me all I was trying to hold onto, and with my hands full, I couldn't grasp His hands. I let go this week, and I will continue to feast upon the fullness of the Holy Spirit.
FAMILY! Oh how I miss my wonderful K-squad already! Some of my teammates and I have already kicked around the possibility that training camp was captured in a time capsule and in one week we lived 10 years! I'm still working out the hard facts/crunching the numbers and I know there has to be something in there about a wormhole or two, but I will get back to ya'll on what I come up with. 🙂 From outdoor community shower time in the monsoon-like rainstorm to having peanut butter licked from my face by one of my bearded comrades, it is safe to say that I have bonded with these crazy people. All I can say is that leaving camp at the end of the week felt like leaving HOME…. to go… well, home. RIDDLE ME THAT!!! I can't wait for the upcoming adventures that await my family and I.
"Me??? A Team Leader??? You've got the wrong guy." What I thought was the voice of reason speaking these words into my ear turned out to be the voice of fear that sadly, I knew all too well. I have always been afraid to step into a leadership role ANYWHERE, because God forbid I actually have some resonsibilty! I've always been quick to dismiss myself as incapable, in fear that the weight of leadership would crush me as if I had chicken legs to stand on. But God has broken my bondage to fear, and he has given me a spirit willing to fail and learn and try again and lean on His strength through it all. I stepped into this role in faith that God can and will use me to lead others in a way that makes them flourish and experience Him in unprecedented ways, and when I submit to His sovereignty over it all, I feel a sense of peace and excitement to walk into this new season of life. 🙂 OH and I have the most BAWMB team to serve with btw, so that helps I guess…. You know who you are K.A.G.A.A.S.S.!!! haha (Acronym of teammate names in an order that we have deemed humerous… Just in case you were wondering…)
It is my joy to move forward and turn the page on this new chapter in my life. I know God is here, and at the end of the day, He is all I want.
