More so lately been feeling like I’m being confronted with the issue of brokenness…becoming more aware of my own brokenness, i guess. Very messy, not pretty, not liking this place…kind of touches on the whole vulnerability thing i got going on…but i know this is Him. He wants me to be naked and unashamed…well, i’m trying to hide….
It’s weird because that’s what the presence of God will do to you sometimes….it will bring you to that place of facing your brokenness and you have to choose one of these two options:
1. Surrender, or
2. Run and hide
That’s what was going on with Adam and Eve, our great great great… grandparents. They messed up, major FAIL…and God knew. So instead of surrendering and confessing their mistake, their initial response was to cover themselves with fig leaves and run and hide when they heard the sound of God walking around in the garden (Genesis 3:7-9)
But up until then Adam and Eve were naked. The Bible says that they were naked and were not ashamed (Gen. 2:25) but when sin entered the scene and they came face to face with their mess, yes they were still naked but now they were ashamed. They saw their brokenness and instead of returning to the One who can restore them, they covered themselves with fig leaves, trying to hide their shame. Don’t we do that? Instead of being open about our pain, weaknesses, struggles, messes, etc. we try to hide behind a macho exterior…don’t i do that?
Well i’m not macho…i’m weak, got a tons of issues with confidence, i’m a little shy too (I know right!), thinky, wish i was a couple pounds thinner, maybe a little taller too…uuhhm and I beat myself up about stuff way too often than i’d care to admit. Trying to get over stuff from the past so that i can move forward but someway somehow i keep returning back to that dried up brook. The list goes on my friends and truth is I’m broken.
But here’s an even bigger truth- God isn’t. Being in the presence of God makes me so aware of how broken I am. But there is something beautiful here that I am grasping and that is that even though He sees it all, every flaw, pimple, scar, He’s not lording it over us with guilt and condemnation but, if i let Him, He will cover me with His grace instead. He is the only One who can forgive, heal and make whole…He is the One who can restore you to who you are supposed to be
He gives beauty for ashes and every scar He can turn them into beauty marks
