The Lord had been working through some stuff with me. So I have been in a time of listening more them talking. I have met the silence with lots of resistance. I can not even begin to explain to you the number of blog post I composed and then realized that I wasn’t getting a point across. The Lord had called me to a time to stop talking and that meant relying on Him to provide and for him to give me the words when the time came. So, here I am… after lots of prayer… to tell you all about what has been going on. If you know me, you know that I get a lot of visions or “metaphor” from the Lord and although they seem silly to some they speak to my heart deeply. So, today I will be telling you about 3 visions that the Lord has been using to walk me through this season.
1. Child, let me clean you.
I walk into the thrown room of Grace, to join my friends , and ask the Lord to clean me. I am a small child about 3 years old. Daddy God is happy to do so. He tries to pull off my shirt, covered in stains, smelly, and exposing my belly because I have grown out of it , but I like this shirt, after all, I am known for wearing it. I began to run around the thrown room and scream. The people in the thrown room are becoming embarrassed of my behavior and some even leave the thrown room. I am throwing a tantrum and it is incredibly embarrassing but my Daddy is passionately waiting for me to calm down. I don’t want to be naked and vulnerable, I don’t want to change my shirt. Then I hear my Daddy whisper “You have to trust that I have something better.”
Now that was the end of what I saw but that is, by no means, the end of the story. Now its my choice, do I trust him to give me something better, how wonderful would it be to wear a beautiful white dress, to be clothed like a princesses in a dress of white! You see, I was ok with where I was at in my walk with the Lord and I was forming and identity around being that person but God had been changing me. Will I chose to resemble the change or will I begin to repel people form myself by my spiritual stench and even case people to run from the Lord?
Changing is hard, and resting in the thrown room naked as he cleans us is hard but my hope is that we would trust Daddy God to clean us and cloth us well, with no judgement of the curves and scars that are our bodies contains.
Reference verses: Hebrew 4:11-16, Isaiah 61:10, Revelations 19:7-8
2. In your hand
I see a big hand, The hand of the Lord, holding what looks like a dirt clod. The hand is dirty like it had to dig deep to find this dirt clod. The hand closes around the dirt tightly and I begin to fear that the dirt is now turned to dust and will never be formed the same again. Then, the hand opens and in the place of the dirt is a beautiful gold clump.
That gold clump was my heart and the Lord took it from dirt to gold. He can do that just as quickly as a close and opening of the hand. Often times we want growth, in parts of our life, to take a long time but the truth is that sometimes the Lord wants to work quickly with somethings. Maybe it took you a long time for the Lord to work out a small thing in your life, like he has for me, but now he is removing a big part of your past identity in one hour. That is ok! He is doing something great even if it isn’t as difficult as you want. When we submit things to him it often is taken simply!
Reference verses: Ezekiel 36:26, Revelations 21:5
3. I got you something
Jesus and I are sitting together and I tell him I have something to give him. I pull out a chocolate bar and say that it is all for him but I only break of one piece and hand it to him. I wait and think to myself that I will only give him more if he asked. Jesus looks confused, didn’t I just say I was going to give him the whole chocolate bar. He doesn’t ask for more. We both sit there waiting for the other to make a move. It feels pretty awkward.
How silly does it sound, for us to say we will give someone a candy bar and then not actually give them the whole things? we don’t normally give people gifts like that but we do give ourselves to the Lord like that. I mean, I can not tell you the number of times I have prayed the prayer “take my whole heart.” or “I cast all of my burdens on you.” but if I was being honest when he said he would take them I tent to say that he can have the ones I don’t want to keep. How silly and awkward of me to give things in part to the person that I promise the whole to.
I feel like this may be where some other people are at in there walk as well. I encourage you to join me in giving the Lord everything. It will be hard and we may forget to do it sometimes but the good part is that the parts we forgot to give will always be there to give once we realize it.
Reference verse: Romans 12:1, Proverb 23:26
This might seem like some basic stuff to come to the realization of or the idea of visions are foreign to you but the Lord is making so real things that we know but sometimes don’t act out in our time with the Lord. I know for me it was really eye opening to find that I was acting out of the flesh in these areas without even thinking about it. It has been easy in the past for me to want to stay within the identity the Devil keeps telling me I need to remain who I am but the truth is we serve a Good Daddy and he wants to trade or brokenness in full, not in part.
