This past week has been one of the best weeks of my life, WR Training Camp. I met the most amazing people that completely changed my life and out of those people I met my new family “I” Squad. I’m so thankful for the 40 people that are apart of that squad. They accepted me, loved me, laughed with me, cried with me, encouraged me, and made an impact in my life. The week I had with them helped me realize I can love again…I was made to love and love well. Daddy God walked me through what it looks like to BE love not just do love its apart of who I am and I was able to demonstrate through “I” squad. I’m so excited for each of their journeys I know that the Lord is going to teach them so many things over these next 11 months and they will be forever changed. Sadly I will not be joining them but I know our hearts are forever connected!
You didn’t read the last sentence wrong…I wont be joining “I” squad in September. On Thursday my leadership came to me and told me they felt like the Lord was calling me to a different season. I know the Lord has placed them in that seat of authority and I know they hear from the Lord so I trust them and know that Daddy God has something else for me.
Even though I have peace that the Lord has a plan for my life having to tell my co leaders and squad I wouldn’t be with them was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. My heart was being ripped out of my chest and I couldn’t do anything about it. I had to reassure them that everything was going to be ok even when I felt like my whole world was falling apart.
They prayed over me and told me testimonies of how Daddy used me to speak into their lives and it made me appreciate them so much more because I knew they trusted me, I knew that they loved me, and I knew even if it was just for a week they saw me as their leader.
Since being home I’ve struggled…a lot. I don’t want to sit here and say its been a breeze because I would be lying. In the still small moments I can hear the Lord speaking peace to my heart but I’m still confused. What I had my heart set on since April was taken away and the people that I would be doing life with are going on this journey without me. I look in the mirror and question myself “Did I really hear from the Lord?” but then again I feel confident in the fact “I” squad was apart of my journey. I needed to meet them, I needed to have those experiences, and I need to walk through this next season. It seems hopeless at times but Daddy has chosen me for such a time as this! And I will come out of this stronger and ready for whats next!
In my heart I know I am safe…my faith is being stretched beyond its borders. Its going to be wild, its going to be great, and its going to be full of him!
To my beloved I squad,
I pray you know who you are…that your identity is rooted in Daddy! GO to the nations, love as hard as you can, and be open to change. You are about to embark on a unforgettable journey and it can be anything you want it to be! You have complete control over how many people you pray for, how many hands you hold, and how much you fight for your family. Daddy is calling his sons & daughters to be more like him…to walk like him, talk like him, and love like him. Don’t be ashamed of who you are even when others may look at you like your crazy! Follow the spirit, be bold, be free, be joyful, be beautiful, be YOU! I’m so proud of each and every one of yall and I know daddy placed yall in my life for a reason! Know that the one week I spent with yall changed my life forever & each one of yall have a special place in my heart! Even though I’m a thousand miles away know im praying for yall & sending my love from South Carolina! Live life with no regrets! This next year is going to go by so fast-soak up EVERY moment and allow Daddy to take you on an adventure…just you & him! Fight for each other your squad deserves it! Yall have come to far already to give up now! I love yall o so much! Cant wait to see what Daddy has in store for each of yall! Remember I’m always a email or skype call away!
Xoxo, ericaleighfloyd
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