Disconnected.
Alone, separated and unsure of where i’m at
will I ever feel like i’m the one at bat?
will i always be one step behind the Lord?
looking to my peers I see their eagerness, the fight in their sword.
I’m on the cusp of something exciting, something great
but knowing i can’t be in control keeps me from feeling like the head of my own state
raising support, asking for prayers, telling my story… i’m relying on him
leaving my home, my family, my friends….the significance of this change puts me on the brim
ready to jump? ready to leap? i’d love to say I am
but honestly there are days i just don’t give a….hoot
my daily conversations with the father are what keep me going
he tells me how proud he is of me and that he is reaping what i’m sowing
not so I can see the fruit of my labor but so that he can be glorified
when i see him exalted, I remember that it’s not about how hard i’ve tried
it’s all about him, his love, his son, his cross, his sacrifice
the rest are just blessings…the daal, the curry, the rice
At the end of the day, my pitty party takes a back seat
because im blessed to be able to say im never alone in this feat
thankfully, i don’t have to be in control
his abundant love and unfailing strength are written within my soul
made new by his grace, I can take on the world!
I am supported by him, his spirit and his word.
When the days come to tear me down
ill pick up my shield and remember that i’ve already been found
i was saved and forgiven, now i’m confident and not lost
his provision for my life was paid for with a high cost
there is no one i’d rather have in charge
so i’ll stand here, ready and sitting on this barge.
Staring out at the waters.
Alive.
Connected.
