Oh my, we meet again,and it’s six months later, since we’ve chatted. My apologies are extended because this clearly isn’t a forte of mine. Can we start the conversation with praising the Lord; He has been so, so good and not just in finances, but oh his love, has covered the brokenness that still encompasses of my heart. So much has happened since the “honeymoon” acceptance phase of the World Race. The overextended excitement has passed, but the reassurance of this calling remains. I ask God for confirmation more times than I should solely because I’m not always comfortable with the pace that He chooses to provide for His mission. It seems silly, right? Well, it would be easier to depict a beautifully painted portrait of a relationship built on 100% of trust; it’s a struggle, but He’s never failed me and that is what I count on.
THE LAST SIX MONTHS…
I literally have a short-term memory, but May is where we’ll start.
My mum, the legends (brothers), and I go on a family vacation to Cozumel; the excitement was heightened because this was the first time in awhile that it would be the four of us together. We planned several activities to consume the week with, and of course, lounging around on the beach was a priority. I arrived Sunday, May 31st, eager to detach myself from the busyness of “Denise’s” world for a week; only to wake-up to an email two days later, that my sweet angel, Taniya, committed suicide. This shook me to the core, and as I type this out, I still can’t believe she’s gone. She was 13 and had a whole lotta life left in her lungs! Yep, she’s dancing with Jesus and is immersed in His everlasting peace and love! I don’t understand all of the details that led to the event, and I want to tell you that I am ok, but for now, those feelings are hidden. Her resilience loved me back to health; this angel would sing to her Father EVERYWHERE she went! Everything around her seemed dead; however, her smile lightened my soul and the ones that she encountered. I trust Jesus, but I’m inevitably hurt. The words of wisdom she deposited will be forever cherished and carried in a worn out wallet as a reminder of her life’s value.
Fast forward—>
GOSH.. Several months ago, I had an unsettling feeling that it was time for change, but what kind of change? I was accepted to the WR, so what more could it be. About a month ago, I started attending a new church, Hope City, and love it! AND… My brother has been accompanying me the last three or four weeks; PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!! This is a dream come true! Weeks ago, I had the privilege to serve at a life-altering conference, Deeper Unconference; the presence of God ALONE was sufficient, BUT he was not satisfied. HE breathed life over His plans in my life. One afternoon, I was chatting with my mum and venting to her about my existence. I continued to emphasize that I knew that God had BIG plans for me, but the opposition was overbearing. A few days later, she called and informed me that she was going to invest her seed into this mission and sponsor $2,000 of the $16,000 plus.. WHAT?! In addition, I’m about to move out of my apartment, and head to LA and then over to Atlanta. I can’t even recall all that my papa has done, but boy, am I blessed. He is a good, good, Father. Friend, my life is chaotic. It’s not peaches and cream; I work 50-65 hours per week, and it’s is full of frustration trying to “parent” young adults that have lived in full dysfunction a grand majority of their childhood. My side of the apartment is messy, oh, and the car, is stuffed with clothes, food trash, books, you name, and it’s probably there. NOT TO MENTION…. All the while fundraising $16,562.00. The truth be told, I wish it was appropriate to shower once a week, ok twice , because the exhaustion is real, and I would rather sleep than shower. HA!—> I’m fully preparing for the wild life. 🙂 JK.. Not yet, at least! This roller coaster has taken off, and I can’t wait to press on and lean into my Father. That is all for tonight. Please continue to pray bold prayers over our team, and donate your pennies, dollars, hundreds, or thousands to the Kingdom. Click support, and watch your seed be planted in flourishing soil; people will hear and accept the Gospel all around the world.
