3/25/16
Dear End of World Race Me,
Hey Dee! So Month 3 is rapidly coming to an end and I just want to encourage you. Your stepping out of your comfort zone and preaching on Easter. (Although at the time you wrote this letter you didn’t know that you wouldn’t actually end up preaching, but you still wrote the sermon and were prepared to do it). I’m proud of you. I hope as life continues after the race that you continue to step out of your comfort zone and do things you never thought you could do.
This month you spend the whole month with D-squad (All 37 of you including the ASQL’s). You got a chance to know other people better, You Killed Kayla Dawnn in the game of Assassins. You took time in your quiet time to learn about what Good Father God is, and while you may not have it all figured out yet, you’re getting there. NEVER GIVE UP, and never stop seeking the truth.
This last week you found out you’re going to be an aunt again. So hopefully by the time you get to read this letter Kake will have had the baby and you’ll be holding your new niece or nephew.
This month you started seriously thinking about life after the race. Right now you’re leaning towards working for a few months, saving up some money and then going back to school and get a degree in social work. It’s funny that you’re thinking about going back to school for how much you’ve always disliked school in the past. But I know you and if this is what God has planned next for you then you will do it. I also know that I’m writing this to you during the end of Month 3, so be prepared for whatever God has in store for you. Be open to whatever he has planned for your life. His Plans are always better than your plans.
(End of originally letter, next part is me adding on at the café while I type the letter up)
Dee, You’ve always been afraid of the unknown, of change and that’s okay. It’s a valid fear. But don’t let that fear rule your life, don’t let it to control it. God has so much planned for you, and honestly you don’t need to know all of it right now. Relax and enjoy the journey that God is taking you on. It’s not all about the destination, sometimes you learn more in that journey. This journey that God has you on isn’t always gonna be easy, there are going to be ups and downs, there are going to be highs and lows, valleys and mountain peaks so to speak but you can do this. You’ve got it. And the reason I know you’ve got it, is because you’re sitting here at the end of month 3 looking forward to the unknown that Asia is going to hold for you and you’re not freaking out about it, you’re going with the flow and I’m proud of you for that.
Dee, just remember that you have a good father in God, and that he loves you, and that he wants what’s best for you and that no matter what he loves you. You’re going to be okay. The unknown won’t be as scary.
So see you on the flip side. When you get this letter, life will be so far from what you remembered to be. It already is 3 months in and you know you’re not the same person who left for the race on that cold and rainy January day. 3 months in and you’ve learned so much about yourself already, you’ve given into things that you didn’t know. You’ve learned things about yourself you didn’t know, and you’ve started to shift your anchor from the past to HIM. Where your anchor lies is so important Dee, and I hope that it always lies with HIM.
I love you Dee. I loved the old Dee, (maybe I didn’t always like her but I did love her), and I love the Dee you’re becoming. I can’t wait to see the future you and what God has in store for you.
Love,
Month 3 Dee Dee
PSALMS 139 (NCV)
“Lord, you have examined me
and know all about me.
You know when I sit down and when I get up.
You know my thoughts before I think them. You know where I go and where I lie down.
You know everything I do. Lord, even before I say a word,
you already know it.
You are all around me—in front and in back—
and have put your hand on me.
Your knowledge is amazing to me;
it is more than I can understand.
Where can I go to get away from your Spirit?
Where can I run from you?
If I go up to the heavens, you are there.
If I lie down in the grave, you are there.
If I rise with the sun in the east
and settle in the west beyond the sea,
even there you would guide me.
With your right hand you would hold me.
I could say, “The darkness will hide me.
Let the light around me turn into night.”
But even the darkness is not dark to you.
The night is as light as the day;
darkness and light are the same to you.
You made my whole being;
you formed me in my mother’s body.
I praise you because you made me in an amazing and wonderful way.
What you have done is wonderful.
I know this very well.
You saw my bones being formed
as I took shape in my mother’s body.
When I was put together there,
you saw my body as it was formed.
All the days planned for me
were written in your book
before I was one day old.
God, your thoughts are precious to me.
They are so many!
If I could count them,
they would be more than all the grains of sand.
When I wake up,
I am still with you.
God, I wish you would kill the wicked!
Get away from me, you murderers!
They say evil things about you.
Your enemies use your name thoughtlessly.
Lord, I hate those who hate you;
I hate those who rise up against you.
I feel only hate for them;
they are my enemies.
God, examine me and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
See if there is any bad thing in me.
Lead me on the road to everlasting life.
