This month was by far the hardest month for me. Oh, month 9.
I started the month with bad allergies and ended the month with food positioning, which I’m still taking medication for.
Add to that the limited food options, the extremely hot weather & the small town environment. It just got to me this month. It made me miss home even more. It made me start thinking about our return date in November. Just two more months!
Mostly, I just wanted this month to end.
I literally complained about everything. On my mind & many times out loud too. My roommate Alesha can attest.
Yes, some months are better than others.
And some, well, are just plain harder to bare.
And, in the months that aren’t very great. I know God is trying to teach me something about myself.
Yes, that I can complain a lot. That I complain when I’m hot, sick and feel uncomfortable. I felt like a total baby this month by complaining about everything.
I just wanted to feel comfortable. I just wanted to be home.
But I’m not home. And I know I won’t be home for two more months.
So I had to check myself.
So what did I do?
All I can really do.
I sucked it up and sought the Lord and asked Him for strength & patience & joy & love….just everything fruitful.
I know it’s during these difficult times that I need to seek God more.
I know it’s these difficult times that builds my character.
Even though it’s hard during the process I have to force myself to seek the greater Good. For me that’s the Lord and His goodness. It never disappoints, even through the hardest of pains. His word says it so I believe it to be true:
“We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation. And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love.” (Romans 5:3-5)
At the end….I’ll say some days were better than others this month.
Somedays I cried. Somedays I sweated profusely. Somedays I complained less. Some days I actually didn’t think about home.
Nonetheless, I built a whole lotta character this month.
….Ok, but really, I’m sooooo ready for El Salvador now! Vamonos!
