I have been told so many lies.
Numerous teammates and leaders have spoken over me the image of an excess of baggage being held. Whether I am standing at the grand canyon holding this baggage by a rope, ready to cut it all away, or whether I am standing near the ocean with hands clenched tightly with sand, and the sand is slowly falling out of my hands even though I am holding on tightly for life; the image of “undesirable baggage” is being taken along with me. Do I cut the rope? Do I run into the ocean with my hands clasped together?
Recently I have been discovering what is packed in the suitcases I am dragging through my life: LIES. These lies have been engrained since childhood. Lies also be known as “the impostor” (or I have been calling a mask). Sometimes the mask can cover so much that we begin to believe that the mask defines who and what we are. I will continue to live life vicariously through this mask until I am naked and raw in front of the Lord; vulnerable, then I can see the majestic identity God has created for me.
I must diminish the masquerader before I can accept instructions from God. To subdue the fraud I began to acknowledge lies and decipher how they came about. One of the largest lies that is present in my life is shame. This lie stems from judgement of actions/decisions from the church, friends, family. However there is no such thing of walking in shame when you are walking with Christ. He knows my sins, has paid for them, and loves me still the same. God is taking me through and extravagant healing process, slow or fast, and my story will touch many. “Do not be afraid; you will not suffer shame. Do not fear disgrace; you will not be humiliated. You will forget the shame of your youth and remember no more the reproach of you widowhood.” Isaiah 54:4.
I asked the Lord to let all lies be put to death. When lies are conjured up and being brought back into my life, let only truths be spoken from my mouth:
I only need the love of Christ.
Christ approves of me daily.
I can fail.
My sins are no greater than others.
There is no such thing in walking in shame.
I am good enough.
God will bring me more happiness and joy than any person or thing.
I am infinitely the bride of Christ.
“Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free” John 8:31. This has allowed me to sense the freedom that Christ has given me. I am approaching the Lord with a posture of open arms, rather than closed. I am able to cut that rope and let the baggage fall into the canyon with freedom. I am able to drop the sand and run freely into the ocean, swimming as deep as possible.
The veil is being pulled down and I am beginning to look into the eyes of God. And it is beautiful.
