Hate to admit, but I am a materialistic girl living in a materialistic world. I love fashion, clothes, music, shoes, purses, make up, jewlery, events (particularly Pittsburgh sporting events) and THINGS like many others living in America today. Before I entered the race (and honestly up until about the new year) I was still on my track of buying the newest and most "in style" jeans and top with some accessories to go with. Why not throw in some starbucks to go with that shopping trip?
Now how does a girl like this think she can spend a year in a backpack? I never considered myself a "girly girl" until I realized that I would be cofined to these limitations that frankly were a bit intimidating. These thoughts scared me. Would I be able to stop buying things that I dont need, but want? or look good? On my most recent trip to mall, I found myself leaving shortly after arriving, only having visited one store, leaving with the feeling of guilt. I felt guilty for spending money on things with so little importance compared to the magnitude of needs that will be addressed in the upcoming year while on this world race. Something in me had said "why are you even here?" And left without buying a thing.
I was afraid these sort of changes wouldnt come, and I would be "that girl" on the race; girly, materialistic, and here for the wrong reasons. But this only goes to show what God is preparing me for. And..I CAN'T WAIT! Bring is on Jesus!
