I have been waiting for the go ahead from my Love to write this for over a month now…I just have to trust His timing you know…
Where do I even begin? No idea. But, when I think about writing about my next adventure, John Mayer’s song plays in my head… “Why, why Georgia why…am I living it riiiiight?” That song is sung in my head, and then when it comes to him questioning things, I stop and smile. I smile with confidence and stop singing the song because I know I am living it riiiiight by going to Georgia.
Rewind…
Towards the end of the race, God gave me specific visions of what was to come for me, and what my next steps would be. I saw my sister and my brother-in-law and me living at their house. I saw me helping my mom coach and just goofing around with her girls and other high school students. I saw me traveling with my dad to Alaska or Canada, then eventually all around the world. Whoa. I know right, crazy. Welcome to how my Big Guy communicates with me. He gives me pieces of what is to come, before they come. I am still having conversations with Him as to why He tells me these things…communication is key when you are walking with your Partner in life…
Skip to the last week on the field. Final debrief.
So, with these pieces, I gathered that I would be going home after the race, then I would be going to live with my sister and help her with my niece that will be coming any day now. Key words… “I gathered.” Well, He only gave me pieces of it all, and decided to invite me to something else. It was out of nowhere. Spur of the moment. Changed everything. So naturally, I was disgusted at the invitation at first, and declined. I felt so blindsided by the thought of moving to Georgia and going to CGA (Center for Global Action). I wrestled with Him about it for maybe three days. I was like, “ummm, Lord you clearly never told me this, and I was all set to obey you and love and serve my family…” He kept silent for those three days and just let me wrestle with it. One day I was absolutely convinced that I needed to go home and be with my family. Then, the next day, he gently invited me to Georgia one more time…this time showing me why. I only caught a glimpse, but it was enough for me to say Yes to His invitation.
So, once I got home, I again questioned it all. Gosh, home was so good. SO GOOD. He began to promise me that I would always have a home, but that I needed to obey when He called me away for certain periods of time. He did a mad work on my heart while I was home for the two weeks or so. He promised me I would have a season of being home. I don’t know when that will be, but I know it’s coming!!!
But for now, I have to be in Gainesville, Georgia. I didn’t know why until I got here. At searchlight, He revealed the why. I was so thankful that I listened and stepped out basically in blind and confused obedience. I literally felt how proud He was of me for listening to His soft voice before seeing the whole picture. It was an overwhelming feeling. I actually had to leave worship and run to a room by myself to just soak it all in.
You see, I had all these plans that I thought were from Him. Plans for me being home. Home is where my heart is, always. I had plans to throw this huge dinner bash thing and thank all of YOU for loving me and supporting me. I wanted to take you all out for coffee, since I drink that now, and just pour into you and let you SEE how YOU changed me and the world. I wanted to connect with you and share my heart with you in the simplest way. Again, that’s what I wanted. Apparently that’s not what He wants, not just yet. That is coming! Better believe it. But, His timing is way way way better than mine or yours for that matter. To all my people at home, I will be back. He has promised me that. I don’t know for how long it will be or anything, but that dinner will happen! He put that vision in my heart and His Word never returns void. So until that day, please wait on Him. Please wait with expectancy and continue to love me and support me from afar.
I am so excited for what is to come. I am so expectant and full of confidence because that is what you are filled with when you walk in obedience. I read Jesus Calling today and it was a winner, just like most of the other days.
“Try to view each day as an adventure, carefully planned out by your Guide. Instead of staring into the day that is ahead of you, attempting to program it according to your will, be attentive to Me and to all I have prepared for you. Thank me for this day of life, recognizing that it is a precious, unrepeatable gift. Trust that I am with you each moment, whether you sense My presence or not. A thankful, trusting attitude helps you to see events in your life from My perspective.
A life lived close to Me will never be dull or predictable. Expect each day to contain SURPRISES! Resist your tendency to search for the easiest route through the day. Be willing to follow wherever I lead. No matter how steep or treacherous the path before you, the safest place to be is by My side.”
Good grief! Live like that please. Live in the Spirit, there is nothing like it. Listen to the small urges that provoke you to do weird things. If you hear to give someone a hug, do it. If you hear to go to that gas station rather than the closest one to you, do it. If you hear to pack up all your stuff and GO, do it! I speak from past experience and current experience. He is faithful, and full of SURPRISES if you walk with Him and follow His lead.
Thank you Jesus, you are so good. What a wonder you are.
