February 28, 2009
I woke up as a person who was
depressed
anxious
anorexic
bulimic
addicted
hopeless
Little did I know the amazing things that God had in store for me on that day. A few of my fabulous girl friends had forced me into attending a women’s retreat that weekend, and it was there that I finally gave God every area of my life.
I was healed that night.
No joke.
I finally wanted to be free of the things that had plagued me for over 10 years, because I saw that HE had a better plan for my life. My friends prayed over me and I can promise you that the change inside of me was instantaneous. I can’t explain the way that my mind and body work now, but I can tell you that it is completely different from before!
I am now filled with joy and peace on a daily basis. I don’t have trouble getting out of bed in the morning. I don’t have overwhelming feelings of sadness. I am not easily overwhelmed and have had no anxiety attacks in over 2 years.
I can eat a medium pizza by myself and have no thoughts of weight gain, no temptation to vomit afterward, no feelings of guilt and no disappointed in myself for thinking that I’m “not in control of my life”. My focus was shifted from myself and how I appeared, to how Christ sees both myself and those around me.
I do not need anything or anyone else in my life to fill an empty void, because where there WAS once a void, now there is Jesus. I know that every day of my life is destined for greatness because God has incredible plans for each of His children. If I can give Him glory and touch one life with the Love of Christ than it is a day worth living.
These things are all true of my life now (and always will be) because the Lord is my strength. I tried to fix my problems on my own for so long. USELESS. However, when He is your Rock, you cannot be shaken. I feel so blessed that God chose to heal me and to use me. I know I’m not worthy, but that’s the amazing part of His grace!!
A few verses/chapters that I love and think that everyone should Google asap 🙂
Psalm 46
Psalm 127:1
Romans 6
Ephesians 2:1-10
So ALL PRAISE to the ONLY GOD who loves
unconditionally, redeems, heals, forgives and restores.
I will be forever grateful.
