The summer is flying by so quickly, too quickly! The past several weeks have been busy with family, my brother's wedding (which was absolutely beautiful, despite the 100+ degrees), traveling, and buying the gear I will need for the World Race. Today was (at least it felt like) the first day in a long time that I could sleep in and not have anything I HAD to do (though definitely plenty I SHOULD do!) This gave me time to think…..
….. Training camp is in 4 days.
……. Launch is in 2 months.
Thinking about this has made me so incredibly overwhelmed!
-I can't leave my family for 11 months. I will miss birthdays, Christmas, family vacation, my nephew's birth, and countless other activities.
-I can't speak at VBS. I am NOT a public speaker and I'm just going to make a fool of my self.
-I can't open up to my team at training camp. I'm a private person and I don't want them to know the real me. I at least want them to somewhat like me and if I open up, well…..
-I can't miss an entire year of my niece's life…. she won't even remember me when I get back.
-I can't handle being sick, which I will likely be on the trip.
-I can't eat the gross foods I will likely be served at some point (or many).
-I can't live with people 24/7.
-I can't go without sleep.
I can't. I can't. I can't.
These, along with so many other "I cant's" have been going through my head over the past two days. And God reminds me "You're right, Beth. You can't! BUT I CAN!"
My dad is preaching on the tongue on Sunday evenings and assigns homework each week, each day requiring us to study a different tongue. Seeing that I'm a day behind (actually 8 days behind, since I didn't actually do any of last week's homework), today I read about "The Self-Deprecating Tongue" and it reminded me that I can't do any of these things, but God can and I need to rely on His strength to do ALL the things I can't do alone.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.- Philippians 4:13
Now glory be to God, who by his mighty power at work within us is able to do far more than we would ever dare to ask or even dream of- infinitely beyond our highest prayers, desires, thoughts, or hopes.- Ephesians 3:20
God is able to make all grace abound in you, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work.- 2 Corinthians 9:8
