I feel like I have been on the most amazing rollercoaster for a month. As you slowly yet assuringly climb your way to the top of the steep hill, you look to your side and see the 
ground below you inching away as you make your way towards the skies. As you reach the top, thoughts in your head are jumbled; fear, excitement, nervousness… As the train comes to a sudden stop, your heart is in your throat; you look to your front to see that you have reached the peak of the giant hill. A sudden silence hangs above the train as the riders prepare for the stomach-turning descent. Before you know it, your heart is in your throat, your stomach turning as you watch the hands of your fellow roller coaster enthousiasts sway in the air. The speed increases by the second, the wind blowing through your hair as you climb up the bumps, feel the shakes as the coaster twists and turns, and fall down to earth. The excitement rushes through you like the water in a river. 
Before you know it, the adventure is over, leaving your head spinning in a way you had never imagined. You climb out of your seat, legs shaking, and laugh in your mind; the mysteriously frightening coaster leaves you wanting more excitement.
Bulgaria was one amazing ride. It cost me my life but I will gladly give it up. I had to die of 
myself this month. I had to be broken so I could depend on God in my life. I had to go through some challenging times to appreciate this time in my life. I was still living for tomorrow. I was still living life my way and not His. I was not allowing God to have all of me. I was holding on to things that He has already freed me from. it was hard at times but i would be willing to do it all over again.
I have experienced enough to make me hungry for more. I know that God has more and I want to do what it takes to receive it. I want a more intimate relationship with Christ.
I want to experience Him in a new way. I am seeking for more. I don’t want to become satisfied any more. I will ride the rollercoaster over and over if I have to. I will learn through the bumps, turns, and twist. I will enjoy the peaks and embrace the moments I am descending. I will throw my hands up when I can and I will hold on during the rough times. I will enjoy my ride and get all I can out of it. God I am asking for MORE!
