A few months ago I told my parents that I was going to be gone for a year doing mission work and the look they gave me said it all. They did not think this was a good idea. I expected them to not agree with what I had decided to do the next year but their reasons why was a shock. They told me I should want a nice job with a good paycheck, a new car, and a nice house. They also said I should want to have nice things and be able to provide for myself. I was shocked and could not believe this is why they did not want me to go. Why were all these “worldy” things so important but not Gods calling on my life?
I am ok with giving up my life and the things in my life for a year or more if God ask me to! It will not be easy at times and I am ok with that. If I give up my life and allow God to have All of me and ONE person yes just ONE person comes to know Christ every bit of it is worth it. I have always been someone who has had everything I ever wanted. I was a spoilt rotten brat growing up. I had whatever I wanted and got it whenever I wanted it. I got a new car at 15, a credit card with no limit to shop on, and so much more. I was not thankful for these things either. I got and got and no matter how much I got I wanted more. My senior year all of this changed and at the time I was mad but now I look back and I’m so thankful for that time in my life. My parents went through a tough time and we lost everything and when I say everything I mean everything. We lost our family business, our house, our cars, and it left us with nothing. I then realized that money and nice things were not import but I had to learn that the hard way. If I am ok with giving up the “American dream” then why can’t they be ok with it? I have to have my own dreams and do what makes me happy and what makes me HAPPY is serving the LORD!
I’m so ashamed of being a person who only thought of herself but to see the change in my life all because of God is something that just amazes me. All the things I thought were important are no longer important. All the things I use to dream of have changed. I am no longer that brat who only thought of herself. I now want to see the world changed. I want the ones who have no hope to gain hope. I want the women who are sex slaves to be freed and not feel ashamed of who they are and their past. I want a child who has never been held or loved to receive that love while being held. I want to feed the hungry. I want to share kingdom with those who have never heard it before. I want to see God heal the sick. I want to see smiles on faces who didn’t know they could smile. I want to be that person who can make a difference in someone’s life. I want to be willing to allow God to speak through me and work through me.
I can’t do everything but I can do something and that something God is calling me to do is the World Race! What is that something God is calling you to do? I have never been at such a peace as I am today. The moment I hit apply on my world race application is when I began to feel this peace. It was like a weight had been lifted off my back. I do not know what God is calling you to do but I encourage you to seek His face and allow HIM to show you the way. I am excited to tell the American Dream good bye because that is not what I want.
