Im learning so much already! Its crazy intense!!
This morning felt like the hardest thing Ive ever done in my entire life…
I gave Justin my engagement ring back and I literally felt like apart of me died. (For safety and security reasons why he kept it)
The whole process made me cry harder than ever b
efore… but I didnt just cry… Im talking full blown breakdown weeping…mourning…grieving.
But.
It was so good. God used the entire plane ride to allow me to cry and be taught…to spend time with him
Its ok to cry…to mourn…to grieve…
Its ok that I have Z.E.R.O. clue what Ive gotten my self into!
Its ok that I dont have it all together.
God does.
I am counting on that…
And…
Its working.
I am already transitioning and changing!
…..and.. that makes every single tear and gripping catch in my throat worth it
…..even the heartache of my future husband.
Blessed are those who mourn.. for they shall be comforted!
My joy comes in the morning!
But its good…its sooo good.
And I am the most blessed person to be able to do this..
Thank you God!
