Well, in yesterday’s blog entitled, "Trust"….I mention some struggles and uncertainties in my life.. well.. after I posted that blog.. I just spent some time with the Lord…
Boy, did I ever need it… 🙂
“And when Peter was come down out of the ship, he walked on the water, to go to Jesus. But when he saw the noisily, rowdy turbulent wind, he was afraid; and beginning to sink, he cried, saying, Lord, save me.” – Matthew 14:29,30
I spent some time thinking about this verse.. I realized that I had gotten distracted.. I was so worried about the funds (and lack of funds).. the logistics.. the everything.. that I my eyes had fallen off Christ and onto the chaos around me… So, just like Peter, I cried out to God..
Save me.. Lord.. Save me from these distractions, these worries, these uncertainties…grow my faith in you.. help me to trust you.. I wrestled with the Lord for several hours that night…
I finally just came to this point where…I can not depend on self for this. I can not try to make it happen myself.
God has to do this. I can not walk on the waters myself! I certainly can not raise this $15,500 myself..nor force people to give.. It is all out of my control…
but
…God is faithful…
ever so beautifully.. perfectly…faithful.
Despite the lack of sleep, the next morning, I got up and went running.. It was just a great time of renewal and time with God.. Justin had really stepped up to the plate and was a great comfort and encourager….Thanks for that!
It started out as a good day! And.. it kept getting better!
I was able to make a huge contact early that afternoon to help raise some more funds and that was just so encouraging! I could see God moving throughout the day!! God was taking care of everything! It was like, He had been waiting to remove this burden and stress, but, I never gave it away to Him.. it was like He instantly fixed everything! Amazing!
I know this sounds silly..but… it really did mean a lot to me…I was at the cafe at school and I was in a hurry so I just sat by myself to save time.. and.. they were serving Chinese that day.. and I grabbed a fortune cookie.. Not that I believe in them or horoscopes or anything.. But.. I got it anyway.. Its fun..But, before I opened it.. I literally prayed over it. Not that I demand signs and wonders from the Lord…but.. I did pray over the race and my funding…After our wrestling match the night before, God knew that I needed clarity and confirmation…
This is what my cookie said..
I was overjoyed. It was exactly what I needed to hear.. I totally believe that God will use whatever He wants to be glorified.. And, He was quite lavished upon when I read that
! I needed that so much, thanks God…
And…that cookie was right..
I had gotten a call from my old boss, Tony.. I had not really spoke to him since July.. It was refreshing to talk to Him and to catch up! But, Tony did something for me that I will never forget.. He committed. He knows my heart is in and for this journey for the kingdom and he is currently doing everything he possibly can to help me get there! He got me some awesome networks with the mega churches in the area! He gave me lots of great ideas for fundraising, Tony was serving my personal advocate! He encouraged me so much! I really needed to hear that! To just think that the day before, I had hit rock bottom and was leaning toward giving up. Not only did Tony motivate me and encourage me, He supported me! $100! It was amazing! Thank you so much Tony, I really, really appreciate it! Such a grand and unexpected help and comfort!
I was feeling overjoyed and so proud of my inch and half fortune cookie tab… (also known as God’s gift of reassurance to me…) *Wink*
Anyway, I was actually on my way to the art department to borrow a book from a friend for one of my classes…and.. As soon as I got to the department, my phone rang! I answered it and was completely shocked at what I heard!
“Amy Colley!! Congratulations, you have just won
$500 for your textbooks!”
Yeah, I shouted! Yeah, I celebrated! Oh yes, I did do the happy dance right there in front of everybody!! I could not believe it!! I was sooooo excited! It was a contest the local radio station was hosting! They were supposed to draw the winner that previous Tuesday…and.. I prayed and prayed and prayed and PRAYED that I would get it!! But, When I did not get a call Tuesday.. I was sad, but, at the same time.. I was ok that I did not win.. I did not feel deserving of anything because I had fallen so far away from God and slipped under the waves… why would God bless you if you are not even doing what you know you are supposed to do…?
That’s how I felt…and moved on from the chance that I won.
But, here it was Thursday and I HAD WON!!! It was crazy good! God pretty much winked at me and said, “here you go, beloved! Its all yours! Thanks for believing and trusting! Thanks for having joy despite your circumstance”
What?!!?!?!?!? WOW!! It was amazing!! I can not even begin to TELL you how amazing, awesome, every good adjective that was!
Totally, help from unexpected source! Wow! God is sooooooo extremely faithful! I know that winning that contest was from God! I was so worried how I would pay for my books and lab fees! I simply did not have that kind of money! God provided a need in my life!
The day does not end there! Oh, no!
I got a call from a friend that said, “Amy..did you know that you were in the paper?!”…
It had happened! I got published in the Alabama Baptist Association! It is a circulation that is read by over HALF MILLION PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Are.you.joking.me.right.now?!
God!!!!!! whooooowhoo! You are just providing and providing and providing…over and over again! I just sobbed like a baby!! I was sooo excited! (read blog labeled, “Speechless!”) I did not think that my article would get published so soon! Another unexpected help!
God, you are going to provide for this trip.. Your name will be glorified among the nations! You will reign!
On top of all that, I had another $120 in my account toward the race.. At this point.. I am just speechless in the presence of the living Jehovah Jireh!
God did a complete transformation in my life today.. I was amazed at all the places I saw God moving! He literally saved me from the crashing waves and let me allowed me to not only walk on water… but, I am pretty sure I just did a marathon over major bodies of water!
GOD IS FAITHFUL!
I know He will provide for this trip! I know my God is with me! He is my Jehovah Jireh! He is my Jehovah Nissi!
I just can not thank you enough Lord!
Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you!
Trust in the Lord!
Taken from “Trust” blog yesterday,
‘And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. To him be the power for ever and ever. Amen.” 1 Peter 5:9
I am living proof of this!
He has restored me! He will provide!
…restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast!
Thank you Jesus.. Thank you!
