What am I thinking? I'm insane! Are you sure God, are you sure you don't have me confused with the other red head down the street? I never wanted to be a missionary or anything like that, so this could all be a big mistake. I could just keep serving the way I have been right here in my own town. Safe, warm, comfortable, lots of food to eat, a big bed all to myself, college, family and friends, chai tea lattes whenever I want, what's wrong with that? God why do you want me to leave all that behind to follow you?
Why have you given me this gut-wrenching desire to love people the same way you have loved me, to see the world, to be stretched beyond my limits, to rely soley on you because I have nothing else, to see justice served where people are being tormented under oppression, to live this message of hope and love across the world and show that it is real and living, why God?
"The Spirit of the Lord is on me, because he has anointed me to preach the good news to the poor. He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners and recovery of sight for the blind, to release the oppressed, to proclaim the year of the Lord's favor" ( Luke 4:18).
"For even the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many" (Mark 10:45).
Well then in that case Lord, use me. HERE I AM!
