On September 28, 2011 I interviewed for the World Race. At that time it was all a dream. I heard God whispering in my ear but I was like God "Are you sure this is what you want me to do"….Funny enough He said…."Ahhh YES Alex…..How many times you want me to tell you!!!"
I knew that by accepted what God had for me I would have to make some sacrifices and I was ready to do it….but I didn't know to what extent it would be. When I got to training camp it seemed like just another Christian Camps to me….We all came as normal Enlisted Soldiers not knowing that God would turn us into warriors for his Kindom…..So of us came with heavy hearts, financial issues, family issues, expectations, and etc. not realizing that God had a master plan to settle all those things for us. For Some of us he gave peace by the end of the week, but for others of us we had to completely commit to the process!
The first night of training camp we had a teaching on three of AIM's six steps for preparing for the battle/Journey. In order to live out the whisper that Christ has given us, we have to start the process but not only start but finish.
- Abandonment- Leaving some stuff and people behind (Matthew 19:28-30 and Matthew 16:24-28)
- Brokenness- "I can't do this anymore. I must deal with whats at hand" (Matthew 5:3-16)
- Dependence- Giving up control of your life and relying completely on God to Take charge. (Mark 8:34-38, Matthew 10:16, John 10:27-30)
- Empowerment
- Calling
- Confirmation
It was so amazing……OMG…..God said "Alex I'm here, stop running its time to start dealing with your problems"
What I hadn't realized is that I was carrying around hurt from my past that I had suppressed so far back in my memory that only the Lord could bring it back up. Day 3 lesson was about Grieving the Seasons of our lives.
"We must grieve the painful losses of the past seasons of our life before we can effectively embrace the present and the future"
Matthew 5:4
So as I listen to the man tell me I need to deal….and God tell me I needed to deal…..My first Instinct was to say No….But as we all know you can't tell God No and think its going to just stop there…..Joah tried and we all know where that got him.
Up until this point I had been fine, the spirit go to moving and out of no where I started crying and I started praying and asking God to help me. Thank God for being a comforter, because when I needed most he was there for me. The rest of the week I had a sense of peace from the holy spirit…..That peace is better than sitting on beach in the morning watching the sun come up.
Though the trip itself has not begun, the World race has because the process for my team and I has begun. The processes isn't just for this trip but for a Racer/Warrior for God this is a lifestyle we've chosen to live. I pray that you continue to partner with my team mates and i in prayer as we continue this journey for the next year.
