I’m not sure where to start with this story but to share that God has called us to leave the World Race when we do our debrief in May. Our funds are complete because we no longer need to raise the full amount we originally had shared.
When I left for the World Race, I could have never imagined what the following week had in store for us. Within the first week in Fort Lauderdale I was flooded with all of these emotions: excitement, anger, bitterness, joy, fear, love, abandonment, sadness, loneliness, and confusion. It wasn’t because I was leaving the country or my family or my home. You see, on the first week of the race, we found out that this coming September the Capistrant family would get an addition. Much to our surprise, God had created in me a child.
The week was kind of a whirlwind for me. I went through and am still dealing with all of these conflicting emotions. At first, I couldn’t imagine why God had given this child to us now and I’m not sure that I will ever know the reason of the Lord’s timing. I also knew God had full control over me and my baby. He knows the purposes of his plan. I felt so angry that I my career plans must change. I was in fear all week until I knew from the test and then I was just angry. During this past month, one minute I am so upset about all the things that this baby is already doing to my body like stealing my appetite and making me tired, and the next minute I am debating what colors I want the crib bedding to be. I have become more comfortable with the idea, but I am still struggling with my selfish desires. God has been giving me good heath; I thank him every day because He has kept morning sickness from my body. I really feel like He is protecting me from a lot of the symptoms I could be having. It has been helpful to talk to a few friends and our immediate families at home and see how excited they were for us. I know God has awesome plans for this child and for my life.
“There’s hope for me yet,
Because God won’t forget
All the plans He’s made for me.
I have to wait and see.
He’s not finished with me yet. “
Wait and See by Brandon Heath
We were blessed that in the Dominican Republic, one of the contact’s wife, Kristen, is a nurse. She has also had both
of her children there, so she was super helpful from the premeds to the doctor’s visit. The doctor said that I am very healthy and that the baby looks like it’s growing at a good pace. To the right is the picture when we went to the doctor of us in front of the ultrasound. Paid all of $20 for it!! Now, we are in Haiti so we are praying for God’s protection from Malaria.
When we heard the stories of brokenness from the race, Ty and I wondered where our brokenness would come from or out of. Alright God; I don’t know what decision I have to make but to trust that you know what you are doing in and through me. I trust that you know what is best for the good of your kingdom. I know that you never called me to a simple or uncomplicated life, but you did promise your glory will remain.
