This is month four of my journey and a lot has changed since the beginning of my journey. The biggest change is in our team. Amanda my team leader is now a squad leader and then Tina was moved to a new team. Christa is now our team leader and Sam is part of our crew. Our new team name is Team Danger. Because we want to live on the edge for Christ and not let fear or anything else not of God hold us back from doing His will.
Last week was a little hard I had to go through the process of missing my former team mates and letting them go. It was hard and I cried a few tears. Tears of missing my two team mates and tears of joy for being able to stay with four of my team mates and having the privilege to serve beside Sam and get to know her in a much deeper way.
The season of sadness and learning from past mistakes is past now and I feel great joy and eagerness for what a waits our new team. I feel a sense of freedom in the air too. I’m not sure why it’s there or where it came from but it is definitely there. Oh I can’t wait to see and experience what all God has planned for all of us. I love my team mates so much and look forward to growing and going through the hard things together. I can’t wait to see God’s finger prints all over us. What an amazing God we serve.
Father God I just want to thank you so much for this opportunity to serve You and to learn so much more about you. You are so amazing and You replace our small dreams we have with so much bigger ones. Thank You Father for the courage and strength you give us each day. Father continue to guide us and hold our hands. Lord I see a child right now walking with their parents hand in hand. The parent holds the child’s hand not to tightly so as not to allow freedom of movement and the child doesn’t feel controlled or forced to stay with the parent. But the parent doesn’t hold the child’s hand to gently so the child doesn’t feel safe in the crazy busy world and the child doesn’t feel not wanted or important. The parent holds the little child’s hand tight enough to where the child feels loved and wanted and safe but loose enough to where the child feels free. The child feels free enough to run and play and free enough to make mistakes so the child can learn from them. The child is also confident enough that the parent loves him/her so much that when the child lets go of the parents hand the parent stays there waiting patiently for the child to come back and hold their hand again so they can continue walking together. Father God, You are that parent I see and I am that little child.
I know You have my back Lord you’ve proved it time and time again. I apologize for doubting it time and time again Lord. I know the reason for my doubting isn’t because You’ve changed Lord. Father Your word promises You will never change I see that right now. I know the reason for my doubting is because I lose sight of You a lot and I turn my ear to listening to Satan’s lies. Father God just guide me and my team this month and the months to come. Walk hand in hand with us. Protect our minds from the lies of the evil one. And help our eyes stay focused on You so we don’t become afraid. Thank You Father for the amazing things I’ve already seen You work through my team mates and me these past five months. Father God I just praise You Lord. I just thank You for everything You are so amazing Father God. Thank You for making me Your daughter. Praise You Lord. Amen.
