I met with a dear sister of mine tonight that has been a huge part of my journey the past two years. In the midst of everything that the World Race could throw at us, Marissa and I weren’t always on the same side of the argument, but I knew without a doubt she supported me (it went both ways…). Now that we’re back in the States, of course she’s going to be one of the people I try the hardest to keep up with. It does help that she also lives in Dallas.
When I was in Gainesville, GA for the Stirred conference, I had such a blessed time reuniting with practically 1/2 of the I-squad. It was such a breath of fresh air to worship and have meals together. Several conversations hit some pretty sensitive nerves.
My first month or so back, I crunched the numbers to consider going back to Malaybalay to volunteer w/ K.I.M. I’d also thought about working in Ville Tecii, Romania too. But what I loved most about being there, was living with a missionary family, John, Rita & Holden Fracker, who are currently doing ministry in Cayman Islands. I was overwhelmed by lack of funds and trying to fit this new me into my old world. Paying off school loans. Going back to the workplace. Driving where people actually obey traffic/driving laws. Wondering if my family notices anything different about me. I dreaded the thought of support raising again so soon. I didn’t know how I felt about leaving for another year or so. At that point it seemed too much and I was tired.
But now that it’s been 6 months and I’ve had a chance to get more perspective and be patient with God & myself; certain futures actually seem possible.
And now it’s about to get interesting…
I had a lot of trouble sleeping Sunday when I got back (and believe me I was super exhausted from driving 13 hours back to TX). I was wrestling with the question of “what’s really holding me back?” And also, when will I go? I know my heart misses these important things in my life, but how is it going to pan out?
The next morning, John was online. We started to do some catching up and he told me he had a new project coming along. He has become the new Missions Director for Christians In Crisis and is going on a 10-day trip to Batangas, PHILIPPINES. A team is being put together to do medical missions, evangelism, children’s ministry and more. (Eventually the Frackers will move out there.) John & I were getting fired up about this. He asked me to be part of the team. Talk about divine appointment!
Of course since I heard this news, I haven’t been able to get it out of my mind. After a week, I gave John my YES! Btw, to my teammates that remember my “yes days”, I said yes on a yes day 😉
We are praying for more to join our team. I’m also praying and asking for your support. The total cost (including air fare, food, lodging, transportation, insurance, and ministry expenses) is $3,100. We’ll be leaving Feb 26th and returning March 7th. I’m excited about being part of a vision casting process for CIC and the Fracker family. I’m excited for this crazy way that God is going to reunite me with this family in a country I miss dearly. I mean, what are the odds?
With God, anything really is possible.
If you would like to support me or want to know more, please email me at [email protected] so that I can set up a meeting or call to talk. 🙂
