There is a spirit over this place.
There is something here that is not of God.
We spend our days doing evangelism and teaching English
which doesn’t take up a lot of the day. And by the end of the day it has felt
like I have run 5 miles. We spend our nights tossing and turning. I go to sleep
earlier than I usually do and wake up still more tired than ever. I have lost my passion here. Our evangelism consists of
visiting families and just talking to them. We share with them about Jesus and
what he means to us. I can’t be excited about sharing Christ here. He is my
hope my light and my salvation. I should be so excited to bring them this hope.
But there is something that sucks the life out of me here.
which doesn’t take up a lot of the day. And by the end of the day it has felt
like I have run 5 miles. We spend our nights tossing and turning. I go to sleep
earlier than I usually do and wake up still more tired than ever. I have lost my passion here. Our evangelism consists of
visiting families and just talking to them. We share with them about Jesus and
what he means to us. I can’t be excited about sharing Christ here. He is my
hope my light and my salvation. I should be so excited to bring them this hope.
But there is something that sucks the life out of me here.
I wish I would’ve recognized it earlier, this spirit of apathy. Then we as a team
could pray against it. We could have asked God to be present and replace this
apathy we are experiencing. I don’t think that I would have recognized the
spiritual climate that is present at home or school or church. Being here has
showed me that I need to be spiritually aware wherever I am. I could be sucked
into that life.
could pray against it. We could have asked God to be present and replace this
apathy we are experiencing. I don’t think that I would have recognized the
spiritual climate that is present at home or school or church. Being here has
showed me that I need to be spiritually aware wherever I am. I could be sucked
into that life.
At home, busyness was my spiritual climate. Any place that I
was present everyone was so busy they didn’t have time to relax or much less
spend time in God’s presence. Satan has that stronghold over people at home so
much so that they are distracted from the things that matter. Spiritual
strongholds are everywhere you look.
was present everyone was so busy they didn’t have time to relax or much less
spend time in God’s presence. Satan has that stronghold over people at home so
much so that they are distracted from the things that matter. Spiritual
strongholds are everywhere you look.
It was a month of learning. Looking back I could get
sucked into the thought that I didn’t do anything for God’s kingdom. But that
would be Satan using this against me. I went and told people about Jesus. I
taught Children about Jesus and lead many of the youth to Christ. Despite my
feelings and mood, I followed Jesus in obedience. So I will rejoice over this!
sucked into the thought that I didn’t do anything for God’s kingdom. But that
would be Satan using this against me. I went and told people about Jesus. I
taught Children about Jesus and lead many of the youth to Christ. Despite my
feelings and mood, I followed Jesus in obedience. So I will rejoice over this!
PS. Someone has told me that I may have the spiritual gift of discernment of spirits. Exploring this and there maybe more to come!
