As I am sitting in my favorite coffee shop of VB, Roast Rider, inspiration for this post flooded my mind. In the past week, doubts were consuming my thoughts. Doubts on if this is my calling, doubts on if I should be leaving my home of 19 years, doubts on if I am really ready to leave my comfort zone and jump into the Race, and doubts on if I even want to go. The enemy won last week. I let these thoughts in about not going on the race and thoughts on how people are soon going to forget me by month 3 of being gone and thoughts that I am going to want to come home after the first squatty potty I use. As you can tell, it was a rough week internally.
I am here to say that I was out of my mind for thinking these doubts were real. A good mentor of mine once told me that just because we are having doubts does not mean that God isn’t calling us to things. It just means the enemy is in full force and doing everything that he can to stop us from going.
I am here to say that I am excited for once to actually leave this great place I call home. I have been far too comfortable here and God doesn’t call us to be comfortable, He calls us to walk out in faith with Him and to follow Him into the unknown.
I am here to say that I know for a fact that I most likely WILL want to come home after the first squatty potty I use, BUT I know that God will be holding me up cause he knows I can’t squat alone haha…
Stephanie Clark, a super inspiring and encouraging woman, made it clear to me that I AM LUCKY. I am so lucky and so incredibly humbled that God chose ME to get insanely out of my comfort zone to share His love and see His beautiful kingdom.
I am extremely excited for what this trip is going to do to me. I am also extremely fearful for how wrecked my heart is going to get.
God has laid it on my heart to share the gospel to people who need it and that I will do, even it means making my closet a backpack and making my home a tent. God is going to be with me and my awesome squad through all the ups and downs, all the crazy and uncomfortable times, and also the awesome and beautiful times.
Thank you all for you encouraging words and extreme support. I am so thankful to have such a strong team of supporters on my side. Please continue to pray for me and my heart, and all that God is going to do.
He will cover you with his feathers,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
You will not fear the terror of night,
nor the arrow that flies by day,
nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
nor the plague that destroys at midday.
A thousand may fall at your side,
ten thousand at your right hand,
but it will not come near you.
– Psalm 91:1-8
