I can’t even begin to tell everyone how much God has done in my life over the last few months. Month one of the race was miserable at best. I wasn’t too fond of the team I was on and I made sure everyone knew it. Then month one debrief happened and Jesus kinda sorta rocked my world.
I honestly wanted to just go home. The only reason I stayed was because I wanted to not look like a pansy to my family. I kept asking God to perform this miracle on my heart so I could stay. I expected him to perform this without any effort from me. God does that right? Does exactly what I want when I want it? Ha good joke. I finally decided I should read my bible on this missions trip I was on. Probably a good idea uh? So I told myself I will read every night for 10 minutes. I figured I should start small so I didn’t bore myself. After a week of forcing myself to read the bible I started to see a change in me. I craved reading the bible. So I kept reading. The funny thing was I started to see a change in my heart. I have never been able to feel the actual change in my life before.
The cool thing was I wasn’t crazy. Other people started seeing small changes in me. I was starting to see my team through the eyes of Jesus. I cared about their struggles. I cared about their hurts and their families. I wanted to invest in them. Did not see any of that coming because the week before I was about ready to bail on this whole world race thing.
Long story short 2 weeks ago I had to switch teams. The funny thing is my first team, the team I didn’t exactly like, became some of my best friends. I grew so close with them over those 4 months and it hurt to see them go to another team. God used them to bring about some huge change in me. I wouldn’t be the person I am now without them.
God has done something incredible things to my heart these last few months. Most of you wouldn’t even know who I am anymore and it’s amazing. I have never been more joyful and positive in my entire life. I want to go and brag about the change God has done in me. I have never wanted to submit to God. I have now realized there is no other way to go through life. Submitting to him has been the best decision of my life. I crave change now. All I want to do is draw closer to my savior.
It’a scary that the final deadline for my trip is coming up on January first. This trip has gone by way too fast. This trip has changed my life for the better and I couldn’t imagine having to leave half way through. I want to grow more and love on this new team I have. I don’t want to go home. I feel God has called me to this whole 11 months. Not just 6.
Please pray and consider supporting me on this journey. The support I have gotten has allowed God to transform my life. I am still needing about $2000 to keep going! that seems like a lot to raise in a month in a half but I have learned not to stress about these things. God is so much greater than money.
Thank you for all the support I have received over the last 4 months. You guys are amazing.
