Sometimes it’s hard for me to accurately describe what is going on in my head. The words get jumbled up together and refuse to form sentences. But I think CS Lewis paints the picture of my heart perfectly right now:
“If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can
satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another
world.”
satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another
world.”
CS Lewis
I’m homesick, guys. I haven’t left the states. I’ve actually returned to my “home base,” and am relaxing for the holidays with my parents. But I yearn for a home that I haven’t set foot into yet.
It’s like a physical ache deep in my gut. I want to be with my Lord. I want to see His glory.
And in that ache, I can find comfort because that reveals the work of God in my life.
[thank you, Father, for drawing me closer to Your heart]
In this “homesickness,” I can see God preparing me to leave for the Race. For the longest time after I had gotten accepted to leave on the WR, I was wrestling with a desire to stay where it’s safe, to stay where my friends and family are. However, God’s been slowly but surely stripping away my ideas of “home.”
I’ve been seeing more and more each day that my “home” isn’t Columbia. It’s not Johnsonville. It’s not some-random-future-city-that-is-yet-to-be-revealed.
It’s with Jesus.
And one day, I’ll be with Him.
But until then, He gives me the privilege to proclaim His glory.
Awesome.
Praise.
Cool.
Thank you, Father, for giving me the chance to be a light here.
