This month our ministry is working in a home for the blind and visually disabled. My team and I are split up during the day as we all work in different departments. My place in the morning is doing maintenance work. There are a lot of different things I have been working on such as a fountain, garden and painting a concrete border in the gym. The guys I work with speak little English and one man is mute, which leaves me to a lot of time to myself and a lot of time with Jesus.
Each day I ask Him to show me something.
As I was bent over painting one day, He showed me a little more about himself, and my relationship with Him. As I was covering up a lot of black spots with the yellow paint I realized what was in front of me. I was covering up the bad, the old, the ugly. Like the new yellow paint I was using to paint over, He also covers up the bad, the old, and the ugly in our lives. The Lord gives us these similarities to see His glory. He doesn’t just cover darkness, He cleanses and heals darkness.
Through out the race I have looked back, reflected, and processed my life. I have shared my story with multiple people on my squad, not the sugar coated story but the real, raw story. Every secret, every unhealthy decision and every relationship. A couple years ago I surrendered my life back to The Lord. Before that I was constantly living in darkness, sin was the only thing I felt like to keep me going. I didn’t see myself as enough, or worthy for true love and affection. I went through a time where I didn’t believe there was a creator of the universe, or that miracles could happen. I found love in unhealthy situations, situations that broke me and broke the heart of My Heavenly Father. I was lost, I was filled with shame and I was hopeless.
But His Light covered me and held me. His Light put me back together and made me whole again. His Light conquered the darkness in my life. His Light pushed me through the hard times and His Light saved me.
I am freed.
I am worthy.
I am restored.
Those who look to Him are RADIANT & their faces shall never be ashamed. psalm 34:5
No matter how dark my deepest wounds were or how bold my mistakes have been, His grace covers them all. He covers the darkest marks in our lives because He loves us. He used yellow paint to show me that. I allowed him to come in and heal my brokenness, If he can do that for me, He can do that for you.
