Christians who remain in hiding continue to live the
lie. We deny the reality of our
sin. In a futile attempt to erase our past, we deprive the community of our
healing gift. If we conceal our
wounds, out of fear or shame, our inner darkness can neither be illuminated nor
become a light for others. But when we dare to live as forgiven men and women,
we join the wounded healers and draw closer to Jesus.
The more I draw close to him the more I become! “In love’s service, only wounded soldiers
can serve!”~ Thornton Wilder
…. And so, “I shall be very
happy to make my weakness my special boast that the power of Christ may stay
over me!” 2 Corinthians 12:9
The first weak and a half of this month it was if I was a
smoldering wick! Barely a flame! No one knew accept me and God! Praise God that
He visits weaknesses and not strengths!
Spiritually, emotionally, and physically I was tired. No excuse or real reason just tired and
empty! I found myself not covering
my squad in the way I needed to! My unacceptable lack of patience, grace, and
love quickened my awareness and heeded a very needed repentance to my
squad! This was crucial for my
sake!
Then it was if He said, “Come to Me now,” “Quit projecting
onto Me your own feelings about yourself.
At this moment your spirit is a bruised reed and I will not crush it, a
smoldering wick and I will not quench it. You are in a safe place. You are loved!’
Running in pursuit of more with the Lord without taking a
sober look And evaluation myself on a consistent basis would be a mistake! Brokenness, weakness, and honesty seem
to be essential in my pursuit of becoming a better man!
“I knew there was only one place to go. I sank down into the center of my soul,
grew still, and listened to the Rabbi’s heartbeat.”
Because I’m becoming more and more ok with not being perfect
I’m becoming more aware of my selfishness and stupidity at times. God brings it into the light, reproves
me, builds me and gives me more then I had coming in! He has strengthened me yet again and I feel I’m in the best
place I’ve been since coming back on the race. I’m realizing how much I appreciate the Father’s discipline-
and that the scriptures are true. “He disciplines those He loves!” To convince myself that I don’t need reproving
or discipline would mean that I’m God! I’m NOT God! I’m desperate, broken, and
just hanging on to the one I love! Yet my life increases and the testimonies He
gives me!
Thank you Father my King for calling me to Greatness and not
allowing me to settle!
” A bruised read he will not break and a smoldering wick he
will not snuff out until he leads justice to victory.” Mathew 12:20 ; Isaiah
42:3
Quotes and inspiration from Brennan Manning!- “The Rabbi’s
Heartbeat”
